WHO AM I

2010-06-10T00:12:00.001+08:00

cheryl hiew said something that encouraged me alot.. she said when i play the guitar she can really feel the presence of God and asked me if i wanna be a cgl.. i was really encouraged.. 2nd time going for 365 in a week.. though tired, though only 3 people praying, i thought it was a good time.. especially in this period..

i am really really tired.. i need strength.. i think i might be over burning myself.. i need to pray alot alot more.. strength strength strength..

my swollen right middle finger

2010-05-21T15:42:00.002+08:00

pos training was intensive, but it was enjoyable.. haha and i injured my small little middle finger(pretty big) of my right hand. now check out the swell in the 1st phalanx.. as though i stuff a fishball inside.. magic~

so big right i cant bend my finger and it's affecting the index and ring finger mann.

hahaha and check out the colour of the finger joint.. i dyed it.. cool right..
then i realise my right middle finger is really impt. cause i cant open a lock, write, use a toothbrush, chopsticks, type and more.. be healed in Jesus' name i confess before AC..

2010-05-18T00:17:00.003+08:00

woah.. check out the creativity of my kids..! so cool...!!
and it's done by .................. ALTHEA!!

so cute right.. it's time to join children's church! =D

2010-05-14T13:17:00.002+08:00

woah.. i can't believe i'm participating in POS again when i decided not to before my exams ended.. it's new people new faces again, but with more professional teaching this time.. haha i think it's good to know more people though (expand my network, social circle hahaha).. cecillia jio me to join one man!! time is tight, schedule is packed, trainings almost everyday.. arms aching, but i thought the main bases should be worse than me.. we need a miracle to get everything nicely done.. haha i sort of enjoying now though.. the weird thing is i don't know everyone yet.. but it's ok.. AC is coming.. woo busy busy busy!! POS, CCH service, choir performance prac.. someone in pos said i'm really over stretching, join so many ministries.. hahah.. one cch is usually more than enough.. okayy.. leaving for short pos prac now..

2010-05-10T16:06:00.002+08:00

exams are finally over!! wooo long holidays are here.. pray that i'll do better this semester mann..
joining choir is like what pongz says, a self-humbling experience.. having served soo long in cch, and now a senior teacher.. newly joined choir, start from nothing all over again.. learning how to be humble and teachable all over.. also enlarging my capacity to serve more..

going through an emotional period again..
asia conference is coming.. excited man! =D

2010-03-04T11:51:00.001+08:00

a pretty lame joke but ya..

A judge was interviewing a woman regarding her pending divorce, and asked, “What are the grounds for your divorce?”
She replied, “About four acres and a nice little home in the middle of the property with a stream running by.”
“No,” the judge said, “I mean what is the foundation of this case?”
“It is made of concrete, brick and mortar,” she responded.
“I mean,” the judge continued, “What are your relations like?”
“I have an aunt and uncle living here in town, and so do my husband’s parents.”
The judge said, “Do you have a real grudge?”
“No,” she replied, “We have a two-car carport and have never really needed one.”
“Please,” the judge tried again, “is there any infidelity in your marriage?”
“Yes, both my son and daughter have stereo sets. We don’t necessarily like the music, but the answer to your questions is yes.”
“Ma’am, does your husband ever beat you up?” the judge start increase his voice.
“Yes,” she responded, “about twice a week he gets up earlier than I do.”
Finally, in frustration, the judge asked, “Lady, why do you want a divorce?”
“Oh, I don’t want a divorce,” she replied. “I’ve never wanted a divorce. My husband does. He said he can’t communicate with me.”

2010-03-03T01:17:00.002+08:00

Hmm. I haven't blogged for almost a month! Wow, time flies! Its 2 months into 2010 now. I guess I must work very very hard from now till end April (when my final exams end), and then it's holidays! This week is a study break. I need to study mugging and stop focusing on my tuition. Asking my students to study and not study myself doesn't seem right at all. Mug mug mug! Cup cup cup!

On a sidenote, Word Power is back! But my memory is failing me badly, can't remember something that I just read. I pray for good memory again!

Nothing's gonna change my love for you -方大同

2010-01-25T13:27:00.003+08:00

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now,
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Just like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are

So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Pongz was talking about this song yday. It's nice. Guess the last time I hear it was some time ago and he brought it up again.

2010-01-25T13:09:00.003+08:00

What a way to start the day having your nose blocked and feeling so difficult to breathe. Thus I decided to skip the morning tutorial to rest a little bit more at home before going to my afternoon lecture at 1530. Thank God I was better and my nose is slightly cleared so I could breathe more comfortably. Then again, felt quite bad that I had to miss my tutorial since one of my goals is to STUDY HARD for this sem!

hmm.. I realised that after finishing GP in JC, I'm kind of lazy to write in proper English, getting done and over with I guess. This is bad man! Just like how i get over and done with Chinese after finishing higher chinese in high school. And my chinese seems to 退步了! I better start using them properly all over again!

p.s I had a verse in mind, but I forgot when I wanted to post it! OH! I remember now!.

Proverbs 15:1
A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.

2010-01-22T21:08:00.002+08:00

today my friends and i were discussing about chinese essays because i have a prof called xiaoming..
一个风和日丽的早晨，小明踏着轻快的脚步。。。and my friend said last time he had a friend who wrote a fantastic essay... BUT he had alot of words written wrongly.. or rather they're all the same word.. it's the name 小滕!! omg.. and then another friend asked what if there is another character? so i replied 小明一，小明二 lor.. my friend exclaimed that i started thinking math in my brain since soo many years ago, no wonder in math course.. usually can use all the colors to make names; 小红，小黄，小蓝，小黑，小白。。。 and my friend's teacher insisted 小黑 sounds like dog.. and “小白！你在哪里？” some random talks...

Central South, Our Land

2010-01-21T21:35:00.004+08:00

hmm.. last week had the great news.. PK officially announced we had our land!! woo.. why are we so excited?? i had some thoughts running through my mind.. many of us had given sacrificially.. prayed soo much and served so much.. i guess it really felt like OUR land, OUR building.. and as PK shared the news.. i was touched and i was reminded of my many visions that i used to have.. many unfulfilled visions.. it was so vivid i'm gonna put them inside my goals for this year!! it's time to rise up and do much more things.. and i think PK is sooo good at preaching.. when people told me about the news beforehand, it was like ooh cool.. but how PK build up the climax to share the news, i really felt soo sooo much moree excited.. it's really the art of preaching..

saw the news on strait times(online), and sooo many people are commenting about it.. good and not so good.. and those people who post those not so good comments really showed how ignorant and immature they are.. but on a good side.. it caused a great discussion in sg!! although 310million is not a small sum, but i'll pray and pray and believe that we will raise the money even before the time is up..

2010-01-14T18:50:00.002+08:00

1st week of school is almost over.. no tutorials for 1st week so lessons end early.. but they're gonna start next week!! gonna work hard and finish all my tutorials this semester.. and this week's lecture not totally filled with people.. probably there are people who decided to give this week a miss since it's the first lecture..

anyways.. i had a 'revelation' that i hang around well with easterners.. though im good with west too.. hahah.. maybe i should stay in the east some day.. or maybe i did...

My little sister, Baby Michela

2010-01-12T21:47:00.002+08:00

went to visit my lil sister, baby michela today after school.. sooo sweett!! =))

falling asleep..

sleeping soundly..

baby michela when she was just born

hahah soo cute mann!!

2010-01-11T00:22:00.003+08:00

hmm.. maybe today's a special day? but not especially special..
xt is officially attached... hahah.. so sorry for my reaction when ying told me about it man.. so you're the 1st afterall.. we're all wrong!! congrats anyways..

Hall 1 feels so different from Hall 8.. though the arrangement of both halls are pretty similar.. but it feels different when i walked around.. haven talked to cheesiang for like ages! and he's going to be a teacher today!! for intern though.. and the funny thing is, when i was at their cg there, samuel arrived and they all applauded!! and as usual.. the who (mixed up the name) asked me about army stuffs! haha.. and ms fangying came at 9 plus when she's suppose to serve?? don know why but coincidentally i talked to alot of yl's members today.. hah.. OH and jianguang the gamemaster came over and talk to me too!! about ARMY as well.. hahah.. i'm the army SME? (subject matter expert) oohh.. and today's sermon is pretty good.. i thought of something weird again.. maybe not weird.. Pastor Tan gave e.gs of girls to serve more to get to know more guys and not vice versa.. hmmm.. this calls for a thought.. hahaha..

anyway.. the most lame thing is coming up.. L4d2 today again with joncai and chaihuat.. finished about 930.. i wanna go eat but they were like okay okay.. i decided go eat macs but then PS too far so decided to walk to dhoby exchange see if JustAcia still open.. but it's closed!! then some nonsense came from them and asked me to fast.. but i continued walking towards PS.. then at NEL station.. we saw alvinkwa.. and this thing about God's plan for us to walk to PS came out!! cause alvin wanted to eat but nobody with him so he decided to go home but we saw him.. if we never go by dhoby exchange, we wouldnt have passed NEL, then wouldnt have seen alvin.. if we walk straight to macs, we would be too fast and missed alvin.. if we decided earlier and eat at parklane macs, we wouldnt have met him.. if we decided to go home, we wouldnt have met him.. so the 3 of us are " in God's plan" to accompany him for dinner.. hahah this is just a joke anyways.. and we started talking guys' lame talk..
jon: i wanna get a car to practise lei..
chaihuat: like that you pay me i go take for you..
me: they wont check the identity meh?
chaihuat: they don know one la.. just suddenly later my driving license drop out..
me: then they see the face on card.. look at you.. same face..
chaihuat.. my twin bro..
jon: twin bro different surname??
chaihuat: different father la..
me: how to different father and twins?!?!??!
chaihuat: then shout to the instructor EHEHEH ARE YOU INSULTING MY MUM $%^&*%^&..
jon: if not just start to cry LOUDLY and ....
and all the nonsensical talk..

and OH.. it's Darren Huang and Si Ying's B'day.. so here wishing them
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARREN AND SI YING!! =D..

2010-01-07T22:56:00.002+08:00

woah.. what a bimbotic day it is man.. haha.. so relax, but tired..
at the NTUC,
j: i wanna buy this duster, but is it funny carrying it around?
d: isn't that a broom?

at precious moments,
j: why this bible no red words one? (flipping precious moments bible at JOB)
me: cause you're at the Old Testament?

at cards and such, choosing photo frame..
s: do you think this is nice?
d: no i think this is nicer.. (same frame just upside down)

2010-01-06T00:15:00.002+08:00

i was on the way home on the bus just now.. and i was looking at the notice on TVmobile.. it has finally ended on 31st dec last year.. and i felt like TVmobile only started like last year? i realised.. as i grow up.. time passes so fast i cant remember events and things that happened before.. sometimes cannot even remember the year it happened, not say the day.. i decided to try to jot down significant events that are going to happen from now onwards!!

2009-12-26T02:03:00.002+08:00

PK announced on 2nd svc that Pst Zhuang and Pst Audrey are going through a tough time because their baby Tyler may have liver problem or something.. suddenly i felt something for them.. especially when PK prayed for them.. if anyone can understand what they're going through, it must be PK and Sun.. and after seeing my cute little "mei mei" michela, all the more i understand what they're going through.. Prays that everything will be fine for them this X'mas!!

this week, my cg went to help out the chinese international students on one of the outreach of YK zone.. i think i was quite impacted by them.. and they're really nice people.. praying for them..

p.s. i wanna go see little michela again!! so cutee..!

2009-12-15T16:01:00.002+08:00

somehow the story spread so much i don't know who else knows about it..
might as well let me tell the full story..
though thinking back now, i don't know where did i get the courage from..

prepared a card and got my best fren to get the flowers with me on d-day last year..
and then i got a small cake.. it was about evening when gotten everything ready..
it was pretty late so decided to cabbed down to d-place..
i reached d-place but d-person wasn't at there..
so waited for an hour plus or so for d-person to arrive..
i took out the cake and lit the candle..
as d-person arrived i sang a d-day song for d-person..
then gave d-person the card and flowers..
and it was so late alr so i cabbed back home..

anyway, at that pt in time it really didn't mean much..
but everyone said it does.. so maybe i overdid it..

2009-12-15T15:51:00.002+08:00

i was watching the news about PSLE students this year..
how some regret that they didn't do well as they should..
then i felt that i was pretty mature when i was in pri sch..
to think that i never do well for Eng and Sci and i hated them..
but as exams drew near, somehow i had the thought that i must do well..
i told myself i must learn to like them so that i will do well..
and i guess i really studied hard for those 2 subjects..
and somehow, i managed to score As for both Eng and Sci..
and i thought it's common grace working then..
When you do your best, God will do the rest..
you can list many many e.gs of people who worked hard and did well..
and somehow as we grow up, we tend to slack more..
when we face difficult situations or problems, we just think we can't..
especially in terms of studies.. hmmm..
whatever modules i have next year.. i will do well..!

i must grow up..

2009-11-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

hmmm i had a bad bad dream.. a bad nightmare..
something similar that happened before..
just the character in play is different this time..
i pray it doesnt happen again..!!

2012

2009-11-16T15:41:00.004+08:00

caught a late night show 2012 yday.. woah..
haven watch such a great show for a while..
shall not spoil the fun of those who have not watched..
but it truely shows the different sides of humans..
and it brings us into the show man..
haha just nervous for the people..
RUN RUN RUN!! WHY SO SLOW!!
haha.. but so sad many innocent people died..
Money cannot solve everything..
something cons posted in her blog is very apt:

'For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?'
- Matthew 16:26

GO CATCH THE SHOW!!

p.s. haha i blogged as you said!! =)

2009-10-24T11:09:00.002+08:00

it's been almost a month since i last blogged..
there are quite a number of things i wanna blog about, but kept forgetting..
study study study.. 110 111 112 801 191 324..
all driving me crazy ah.. haha.. now still in school for MR324..
i shall not have sat lessons next sem!!

one note:
shucks is not a good word? how bout sharks?
sometimes it's the attitude of the person that matters..

soccer spoofs

2009-09-29T23:05:00.003+08:00

a conversation between diana and nigel the tuition kid.. during tuition

n: i like man utd. diana you like any team?
d: i also like man utd lei..
n: oohh.. then which player do you like?
d: i like steven gerrard.
n: ah? steven gerrard not man utd player..
d: ya i know.. he's from chelsea right..

have a good laugh guys.. =) sorry diana if you're reading.. haha

2009-09-08T22:15:00.001+08:00

university life has started 5 weeks already..
meaning i have graduated from sot for 4 weeks le..
time flies.. wanted to blog man but have been kinda busy..
math quiz coming up this fri.. tuition after tuition..
haven follow up on all my modules..
thank God i'm still breathing..

School Of Theology 2009

2009-08-18T20:54:00.035+08:00

i have finally graduated from SOT 2009.. maybe i shouldn't use the word finally.. cause i'll really miss the times in SOT.. just so fast it's over.. it felt like i have just entered SOT and it's over in the blink of an eye.. i think i have blogged quite a number of times during this period.. all the memories man.. all the encounters.. all the things i've learnt.. haha don't know what to say cause there are so many things and grandmother stories i wanna blog about..

still remember the first day, i was really afraid.. i saw my team's name list and i realised i knew none of the people.. there are alot of students from china, taiwan etc.. however during the orientation, timothy pan and i, we had so many ideas of the incredible hulk, like we can click.. but then, most of the ideas were just ideas.. haha.. quite surprisingly, i see soo many familiar faces on the first day, and i really meant many!! so surprised because i wasn't expecting to see so many known figures around.. it was a kind of relief or rather comfortable man.. hahhaha.. but none were in the same team as me since we're grouped in zone level.. pretty sad at that time..

anyway.. first month of my SOT was really just crapping with timothy pan during luncheon and enjoying the practical sessions in class..

team 23

Jakarta Mission Trip
(GPDI Karmel)

Timothy Pan Ke Jie
my bestest buddy in T23 =)

one day tim wan invited me to lunch with him.. at first he said he had nobody to lunch with so asked me to join him.. as we reached lobby, pong (i still don't know him at that time) asked tim to eat with them so in the end we joined them.. i don't know anyone there except tim wan and liangkai.. haha this is where T28 started..

Great friends I've made in this SOT =)

haha.. all these would not have been so memorable without breakfast fellowship from the start!

breakfast fellowship clique
wei pin, tim wan, estella jie jie and me!!

hmm.. really miss breakfast fellowship.. especially last week of SOT no breakfast due to morning prayer meeting.. missing those times whenever i take 179 to school, passing by 2nd best.. know many of you heard about T28.. haha this is how i was impacted with them..

International Idol

Sardine and Company (by pong)
i think we were rushing out our sermons!
all the themes are coming up!!

Checks Day

Cardigan Day

Geeky Specs Day 01

Geeky Specs Day 02

Geeky Specs Day 03
i really look like i'm blind with timothy's shades!
some say gao ling feng..

Scarf Day 01

Scarf Day 02
woohoo nice poses!!

Scarf Day 03
outing to town and all bought shades

Hoody Day 01

Hoody Day 02
Pastor Bobby, very dynamic preacher!

Hoody Day 03
Kim Hock, the one who sets the tests

Hoody Day 04
everyone joined in the fun

Hoody Day 05
after overnight prayer meeting.. remember the macs? =X
we were watching Saw 5.. and we slept at the choir stand!!
cannot forget this day man..

Shirt Day 01

Shirt Day 02

Stripe Day

this is one of the highlights man!! going to Batam Emerge is one thing i'll never forget.. although it was said to be a holiday trip, but all of us did our part over there..

Batam Emerge 01

Batam Emerge 02
i don't know why but i ended up in the cheerleading.. it was fun and i made new friends..

Batam Emerge 03
supper at night after everything..

Batam Emerge 04
Erna and Lina, our best tour guides

Batam Emerge 05
anyone heard of going to Zouk for a haircut?

Batam Emerge 06
finally we're back.. rushed for service 4..
and we went to best for fellowship..

photoshoot during CHC's 20th anniversary! =)

National Day 01

National Day 02
hung out at Shaun's place to celebrate the nation's birthday! not forgetting the pratas at Jalan Kayu after a long long long long walk.. hahah

Graduation Night 01

Graduation Night 02

Graduation Night 03
古惑仔 feel.. this pic is just cool except for our cutest teletubby with a sleepy face behind..

Day of Graduation 01

Day of Graduation 02
graduating class of SOT 2009.. hahah

Day of Graduation 03

Day of Graduation 04
finally we've all graduated.. this pic gives me a nostalgic feeling even as i look at it now..
the story hasn't ended yet..

Seth and JX's B'Day 01

Seth and JX's B'Day 02

Seth and JX's B'Day 03

Seth and JX's B'Day 04
it was JX's 21st.. and it was really a surprise man.. must be glad that both of them came to join us man.. ermmm.. hahah.. where their hearts are, there they'll be..

HIV campaign at Clarke Quay

Club Moss 01
these are the guys..

Club Moss 02
and these are the pretty ladies..

Club Moss 03
all prepared to move out!

Club Moss 04
finally everything ended..
an experience to play "The Risk Factor" with the people..

Celebrating Estella's birthday and farewell for Pong and Shauny boy

Juzcafe 01
name spelt wrongly due to language barrier.. now pls proceed to 3rd floor

Juzcafe 02
the guys with the birthday girl..

Juzcafe 03
supporting pong and shaun for serving the country..

Juzcafe 04

Juzcafe 05
purplish pink guitar for estella's birthday present! pic with all the di's..
story till here.. awaiting for continuation

anyway my time in SOT was really fun and enjoyable.. not just that but also life transforming as i learn many many things in class.. and more than that, God's presence is ever so strong during the times in SOT, where you praise and worship God together with other people everyday..
so those who have not gone for SOT, please GO! =)

2009-08-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

i was quite touched man when jt says he's willing to lend me his favourite..
i have said this many times but i think i'm gonna say again..
even though we don't talk for a long period of time..
every time when i meet him i wouldn't feel awkward or weird..
this closeness never seem to go away..
was thinking of my life recently even as i walked to his place..
just read estella's blog and thought a little about sot and stuffs..

anyway.. i was quite impacted when jaydee spoke to me few days back..
he said that i am like the friendliest amongst my whole 'team'..
it was really an encouragement cause i always thought i'm pretty quiet kind..

SOT ending in 2 weeks..
some people told me their friends can't wait for graduation..
many people just wish that sot wouldn't be that short..
haha..

2009-07-27T22:03:00.000+08:00

i really understand people with phobia man!!
people who are afraid of dogs..
people who are afraid of small spaces..

God please take away this phobia from me!!
Maybe i should just take a step out in faith..
easy to say, difficult to do though..

Batam mission trip

2009-07-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

just came back from BATAM!! and it was awesome fun..!!
i think it's the people you go with also.. hahah
our team led the service for last night and it was good!
i felt that we really impacted the people and the atmosphere was there..
the worship team did a great job.. learning the bahasa songs..
was really proud of the cheerleading team too..
didn't have much practices like during POS, but we made it and brought up the whole emerge atmosphere..thank God for the whole thing..
woah.. and i think we had a great time of fellowship and got to know more people during this trip..
Team 28 has significantly grew.. hahah insight joke..

all in all, it was a great time there..
but more than that, though we were there to minister to them, what have we caught from them?
had a great talk with huiwen on the ferry back and i think it's so true..
until singaporeans really go out of singapore for mission trips,
and see the people's needs and their sufferings in their own countries,
and the sacrifices of the people they made to believe in Jesus..
we in CHC now are way too fortunate..
people here can backslide because of a small setback..
like what Pastor Kong says, how much do you really love God? like a babe?
just because you don't get your bonuses or promotions??
haha.. i wanna trust God more.. in every situation and part of my life =)..
i wanna pray and fast for things in my life.. haha

Pastor Kong's singles talk
22-25 -> please start to get married
>26 -> faster go date and get married SOON!!
<22 -> can start dating - not everyone you date is your life partner
nothing's wrong with dating.. must learn to relate to the opposite gender..
date for about 2 years must get married.. engagement not more than a year..
our practicum: go dating.. if not fail SOT..
However.. students will fail when they go dating if they are already married..

fly away... ferry away...

2009-07-24T00:12:00.002+08:00

i'm flying off tmr!! i mean i'm ferrying off tmr to batam!! =)
pretty excited about this trip.. SOT graduation tour!!
but then again.. we're going there to impact the people also..
leaving singapore on the ferry at 1530 hrs..
coming back on sunday at around 11 plus..
and we're all rushing down to attend s4!! haha..

something's really stirring up my heart..
pretty excited about tmr? hahaha..
meet PASTOR KONG!! i asked timothy PAN to ask me along the next time he has lunch with him..
goodbye guys! =)

2009-07-23T00:30:00.001+08:00

something is stirring in my heart..

anyway.. i had my 12 de javu already if i have not counted wrongly.. just amazing..

2009-07-20T21:23:00.003+08:00

oh man.. team 28 is forming.. best team of 2009! hahaha..
anyway.. Javius shocked me just now..
hmm.. what have i done this sot man? hahaha
it should be or will be a secret.. =X i'm just shy..

2009-07-19T15:50:00.003+08:00

tim wan said: SOT i have always, but adam and aaron i don't have always..
this kept me in thoughts about relationships with the people around me
even friendship got to set priorities.. haha..

today's service was soo good!!
i was really challenged to stir up the sleeping giant!
Pst Kong rated service 3's level 6.5/10
Pst: in this service, all of you are the older members.. if all of you want, you can cheer the loudest, pray the strongest.. you just need to stir up the sleeping giants inside..
i think it is a privilege to be in service 3
so touched when singing the chinese version of inilah
great service =)..

2009-07-15T22:48:00.003+08:00

who am i
that You would know me from the start
set me apart

who am i
that You would place eternity
into my heart

haha =) just cool.. just like this song suddenly..
4 weeks left.. time passes so quickly..
just not the one, maybe not the time
if it comes, it comes haha.. we shall see

You have given to me
more than this world could give
my purpose is found in You

i'm just soo gonna miss the times

fun times, practical times, news time....
sot has been amazing..
oh i've been through 11 de javu..
just can't believe this is happening..
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me..

one life, i lay at Your altar
one love, i have with You
touch me again, fill me as You hold
my out stretched hands..

2009-07-11T00:26:00.002+08:00

just feeling troubled and sad..
all of a sudden, i've got myself another debt
my sponsorship not confirm, so is don't have
just cannot believe this is happening..

why are you so irritated when i asked?
i asked because i don't know
you can tell me if you're busy
aiya sigh..

any more debts coming in
i can go rob bank already
if not can jump straight
totally dejected that i almost cried on the bus..

一个鳄鱼掌

2009-07-09T19:44:00.003+08:00

nearing the start of university
means nearing the end of sot
time flies when you're having fun...

anyway weipin's super funny today..
pin: auntie 煮炒开了没有har?
煮炒auntie: 可以叫了..
pin: 这样我要一个鳄鱼掌..
煮炒auntie: ehh.. 那个要order的..
pin: orh.. 这样我们今天order, 明天来吃可以hor..
*aunties looking at each other with stun faces*
pin: then 一个掌多少钱?
煮炒auntie: 一个要六十到八十快
pin: 一个掌要六十到八十快!!??! (speaking in double speed, in shock)
timo: ehh 不是跟你每天吃的鸡翅膀饭一样的lei..
*everyone around the same table just laughed out loud!!*

my goodness!! that was joke of the day la... hahah..
and i only planned to wear a shirt today..
i never plan to wear checks man.. and black jeans.. =)

2009-07-08T23:52:00.000+08:00

just a random post..
don don is just very funny!
hahaha!
with the don don set..

2009-07-07T23:05:00.002+08:00

my goodness.. today's meeting just good..
Rev A.R. Bernard is full of knowledge man!
any word can just come out from him so apt..

Revelation -> Formalization -> Institutionalization -> Crystallization
Pastor Tan said, add water to dissolve the crystals
like praying the Holy Spirit to fill us..
what an impromptu word
or i should say a God-given Word..

2009-07-06T19:19:00.001+08:00

i'm falling sick.. help me God!
i wanna be healed in Jesus' name
all bacteria and viruses get out!

hmm.. my goodness.. aiyo
how did cgh come into play?
haha you all slowly guess loh..
Pst Aries says:
guys like many but only love one..
haha.. if you know me..
sense my heart..

haha this is quite nonsense

2009-07-05T23:57:00.002+08:00

cheryl: beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder..
me: and my eyesight is perfect..

i think that's funny.. even i'm like laughing to myself..
maybe it's not so good that i'm having perfect eyesight..
hahah..

2009-06-30T20:35:00.002+08:00

i love making friends.. but i want close friends too..
people that will care and understand me more..
sometimes it's very tiring to always take initiative..
i need to be more open and more loving to people..

an end

2009-06-30T20:20:00.002+08:00

sot is coming to an end so soon..realized i haven been blogging..haha so busy recently..assignments after assignments.. this week just cleared 10 topical sermons!
felt so relieved..next will be preaching test.. and then i will be starting university soon.. everything is coming to an end.. or is it?

i want to blog about my jakarta mission trip.. it was so fulfilling.. i wish i will never forget the experience.. i used to be quite afraid of going mission trip.. but after going there, i wanna go again.. it's really touching to see the people really hungry and open even though there is the language barrier.. we communicate spirit to spirit.. so literally, my team and i we could sense their hunger in wanting us to be there to minister to them.. quite an experience..

so many things i wanna say.. but not sure if it's apt to say it here.. haha

i wish you would understand
i pray i would overcome
thank you for your prophecy
even though i know you won't be reading
i want to be a greater man for God
help me in my weakness..

2009-06-17T22:31:00.002+08:00

designing wonderful blogs not my style
or just not me to do design
what i like is to pen down my thoughts
just want to share my feelings
feeling sooo sad
think i'm being mistaken by people
something changed in the atmosphere
i just sensed it
life and death lies in the power of the tongue
just emo..

2009-06-16T23:26:00.002+08:00

when you gain something,
you will lose another thing
you can't have both
so you got to make a choice
AND
i hope i made a right choice

9 weeks more

2009-06-16T21:02:00.003+08:00

was talking about 9 weeks left to sot grad
and Pst Bobby just reminded us today
time is so short and precious
we need to enjoy every moment of it
i think i'm starting my emo again haha

forged great friendships out of nothing
never imagine all of you were like this
love to hang out with you guys
hope nothing will turn the friendship sour
i just wanna be a good friend
spoken deep down from my heart

a pure heart
wish people understand

2009-06-12T14:54:00.001+08:00

some things are not meant to be said
once said, many things change

International Idol

2009-06-08T00:17:00.004+08:00

international idol is great man! i think it's a great success..
the atmosphere was high.. performances were extraordinary..
photo taking was cool.. i think adi and pamela were good!
OH.. must blog about this!! this is what sheila corrected..
v said the person cant see or something..
s: can't see means blind..
SOO FUNNY!!

haha.. and had a great fellowship after the whole thing..
haven had a fellowship with so many cool people for a long time
on the way home, don't know why but alighted with the rest at pioneer
after parting from the rest, i walked home slowly
then i started praying.. sometimes walking home is good
probably this is why i was led into alighting the bus..

parable parable

2009-06-06T23:04:00.003+08:00

i had a dream today
from 7am to 930am
the dream was so vivid
i thought it was real
i miss that feeling
it was red
with x-ray and juliet
weird combination
only jt will know

2009-06-06T22:46:00.002+08:00

today on my way to expo ,don't know why
but felt super dry, seemed very tired
wasn't in my best condition to serve
especially at expo, soo many people crowding
cause irritation in my heart

i started praying to God, breathe in, breathe out
calm myself down, clear my mind
asked God to strengthen me
prayed for God to fill me

everything will be okay
and God is really amazing
even at your worst condition
God can make everything alright

reached children's church, started practising the songs
felt so peaceful and calmed
service started, manpower very little
but it seemed quite alright

we were able to control the service
though it wasn't the best
but considering the manpower
i think we did well, i love the children
i am bias, even when they say we shouldn't

i pray for everything to be alright

2009-06-02T20:54:00.004+08:00

today Pst Tan talked about the giant of indifference
we can be ignorant, but we must never lose our passion
with passion, we can still gain knowledge
we must keep our passion, our character
always depending on God

and i was caught there and then
sometimes when i'm too busy,
i will kind of depend on my own strength
and i realise how important it is to depend on God
things may fail if by myself
but with God, things will succeed

i need to continue to pray about my prayers
and last night i only slept for 3.5hrs
this morning i was very very tired
while walking to the bus stop
i pray for God's strength to be with me
during lesson i was really quite awake
though i almost fell asleep a while
but i felt more awake than past few lessons
when i had more rest

pray pray pray,

God please answer my prayers..

2009-05-21T15:01:00.003+08:00

Pastor preached such a great word today!

and God spoke to me at the end worship..

"if I don't fulfill the desires of your heart, will you still obey Me?"

woah.. that really touched me deeply..

and my heart still knows that every word God has spoken,

and every vision that God has shown me,

it will come to pass..

2009-05-19T15:14:00.001+08:00

people don't believe my words man
until unless i show it out
i think words affect me much
so ya.. enjoy yourself.. haha

2009-05-14T22:39:00.002+08:00

confident yet not proud
bold yet not arrogant
humble yet teachable

busy busy.. been rushing over many things
i feel that i cant play the guitar well
suddenly seem to lack the skills, lack the anointing
my left hand is the problem
i can't seem to coordinate the new pattern
i think i've always been playing wrongly
haha..

need to focus focus
trying to multitask
but cant think of so many things

wish list for fairy godmother

2009-05-04T14:58:00.005+08:00

my goodness.. one of my team mates said
i told the joke of the day..
'you know that i'm actually very quiet and shy...'
and they burst out laughing..

my wish list.. actually i don't know what i want lei..
a new house and a car for me to drive? haha..
01)nice table for my room
02)nice bed
03)new pillows (soft and nice)
04)cordless phone for my house
05)new desktop
06)new tv, refrigerator for my room
07)nice shirts
08)nice jeans
09)nice jackets, hoodies(edited)
10)nice shoes
11)nice acoustic guitars
12)alot alot alot of money!!
(can don't give me anything. just give me this hahaha kidding.)
13)best student in SOT
14)get alot alot alot of people to know me,
i mean get to know alot alot alot of people
15)a gf
and i wish i can be like Solomon.. haha sorry to those
who have heard this umpteen times from me.. as you can
see, some of them are quite nonsensical.. please exercise
your discernment k.. =) check out for the 's'es
anyway these are just the basic needs cause i never
really think of what i want.. i'll put up if there
are any updates.. (specific ones haha. you know you know)

2009-04-30T23:02:00.003+08:00

why woman needs cosmetics?
Cosmetics comes from this word,
--> Cosmos(Gk) which means no order, Tohu-Va-Bohu!!
Genesis 1:2
'the earth was without form and void; and darkness
was on the face of the deep'
you know you know.. but Thank God,
'And the Spirit of God was hovering over the FACE..'

Pst Aries said that it is a spiritual warfare for him
if his wife is not pretty..
and to fulfill man's first need.. need a beautiful wife..
it is very important to fight a good spiritual warfare!!
especially if you're going on a mission trip,
and a long~ one..
then you better fight a long and strong warfare first..

a spiritual thing Pst Ming said,
if you have a non-christian spouse,
and in the end he got saved,
it is really the mercy of God..

why must we pray?
you dont want to wait for the devil to come knocking at your door
saying, 'i'm here..'
and you're ' ahhhh..!!'
BUT you should go knock on the devil's door..
saying, 'i'm here!!'
' ahhhhhhhhhh.. nOooooo go away..' should says the devil..
so that the devil will not come looking for you..
but even if it doesn't come to look for you,
you must still continue to go looking for it..
to be consistent..

imagine you're in the china days, fighting a war
the general will carry a flag..
and your enemy goes, 'hahaha, aiya.. easy la..'
or, 'retreat..! zao ahh...'

it is scriptural to pray for Jesus to come back quickly
but it is not scriptural to pray to meet Jesus quickly

during a prayer meeting.. one person please don't pray too long..
'God, i pray for..', 1min, 2 min, 3 min, 4 min, 5min,
cgl starts looking at you, don't care, 6 min, 7 min,
hallelujah says the cgl.. don't care continue praying
8min, 9min, everyone starts looking at you with a deaf stare..
best way to stop, cgl starts singing..
pm over.. discipleship is then required..

2009-04-30T22:56:00.002+08:00

suddenly.. i feel that guys are important.. people cant find guitarist come looking for guys.. hmm.. probably majority are man who learn guitars.. hahaha.. and this year sot sooo many musicians!! cool..

i was just feeling super busy.. and then i was thinking if i were to revert to my old life.. would i be less busy.. i would.. in fact.. i would be so free i cant take it.. maybe a little less busy would be good.. seems like never ending stuffs to do..! i need a life.. always forgetting stuffs cause too many things to remember man..

Help me, help me, help me,
cause all I need is you..

2009-04-28T22:05:00.003+08:00

hmmm.. indeed God answers specific prayers!!
i prayed for a new tuition that will be at least $25/hr..
and i got a new student today which is $25/hr p6..!!
only teach math.. and i really didnt do much about it..
though i was planning to call and ask for new students..
it's really amazing seeing things happening when you pray..!
hahaha.. i'm gonna go pray for my errrhhmmmm... already..
i'm gonna be super super specific man..
you know you know, mum..
like how you pray.. hahhaha

i love You :)

jayden's father

2009-04-27T22:47:00.001+08:00

ahh.. i miss Pst Ming.. haha he had finished his teaching.. on his last lesson, people cheered for him.. so cool man..

talk about sharing things with your spouses
Pst Ming showed his hp to his wife..
w: who is this?
m: erm.. you know you know.. the one la.. that one you saw the last time.. ya..
w: ooohhhh.. so who is this?
however, the wife doesnt show her hp. but... it's okay
eventually, she will say everything out..

one phrase caught:
As fast as you lit the fire, as fast your head will leave your shoulder.
catch it if you can..

there is a difficult saying:
even if your spouse is unfaithful, you have to do what is right..
there's a story that goes like this..
a man promised his wife to be faithful 365days a year..
his wife is soo happy.. what a nice husband..
but he added on.. every leap year on the 366th day,
he must do what he wants.. who wants a husband like this?
[1/(365x4+1)] x 100% = 0.068446% only.. can destroy a marriage
so what makes you think God can take us for doubting His Word..

Pst Ming fetched a mother and her son to church..
before the ride, he asked the son if he wants to go toilet..
he said he doesn't need.. so the journey begins..
when he was about to reach, the son said he wanna go toilet..
Pst: can you hold a while more?
Son: er... yes..
a while later..
Son: i cant hold anymore..
a good father will always prepare plastic bags in the car..
so the mum was helping the son.. and the worst thing to hear is..
Son: sorry uncle ming..
Pst: what happen??
Son: i missed..
mum have not opened for him the bag and he exploded..
when reached..
Pst Ming: Suraj, bring all cloths, towels and water to my car now..
a boy peed in my car!
Suraj: oh no!
Pst Ming: oh YES.. come faster come!
things happen.. but your attitude toward the circumstance matter.. self-control..

then he talked about this guy..
usually people will look at pretty girls and handsome guys..
the guy said he's able to stay focused..
so Pst Ming asked him how he did that..
he said every time he looks at a girl,
he will only look at her above the shoulder..
Pst Ming: people always have the tendency to look elsewhere.. yes yes?
SOT(some): ...yes...
Pst Ming: ya okay.. all liars go to hell ya..
woo check out that butt soo tight (in a feminine way)..

oh man.. he's soo funny..

Pst Aries said something which touched me deeply..
31st dec.. he and the rest of the people doing countdown in church..
so new year they prayed that the year would be the best year yet..
then he sent some girls home.. at 5am..
he met with a very serious accident..
one which caused him to have to attend court from jan to july..
what a way to start the year..
so he told Pst Kong his whole story in details..
Pst Kong only replied him one line..
Pst Kong: i don't know why God allowed it to happen..
but the devil must know that you're gonna have a
great destiny ahead and he must stop you now..
what a word..

2009-04-27T17:19:00.003+08:00

played soccer on saturday morning and somebody tripped me resulting in this.. this is only the external injury.. the internal is more painful man..

2009-04-27T15:13:00.003+08:00

i think i'm really a tough nut to crack..
even so, the more i grow,
the more things i've learnt,
the more knowledge i've acquired,
the tougher nut i become to crack..
alot of decisions making will base on my knowledge..
sometimes good, sometimes bad i guess..
i think i'm a wandering sheep..

i have learnt to be very careful of my usage of words..
therefore i'm very particular of the things people say..
especially if people quote what i say..
usually, when a person say somemthing,
and something lame comes to my mind
i will say it out as a joke.. but if, that involves hurting someone or
making a big joke out of a person.. 我会说,
"我有东西想讲，但是我不想讲。" although this is pretty lame..
but at least i know i won't make a joke at the expense of someone..
so it is so important to say the right words..
when life and death lies in the power of the tongue..
and the WORDS you use, shows the attitude also..
one needs to learn to pass message, of one party to another,
using words with the same meaning and attitude..
the attitude part is so important.. ask me about it..

2009-04-25T12:44:00.002+08:00

injured my left leg.. injured my left hand.. and i realised i use alot of my left hand.. i cant do without it.. God please heal me..!!

while washing the dishes just now, i was convicted of something.. and then another thing struck me.. i started tearing.. God help me..

2009-04-23T21:33:00.003+08:00

刚教完补习，

在回家的路上想了一些事情。
突然间，我有了一个启示。
哪些人才算是亲近的朋友呢？
就是那些当你和他们单独的时候，
你还能和他们说话，
还能分享你的心事，
不会有那种尴尬的感觉。

有些时候，

虽然你会喜欢和某些朋友在一起，

但却不能说出你的心事，

那些不一定是你亲近的朋友。

2009-04-22T23:18:00.004+08:00

had many thoughts today during sot
when Pst Aries is preaching
good or bad.. accountability.. attitude
not what you say but how you say

2009-04-21T22:38:00.002+08:00

i just checked this verse on the amplified bible.. and it says..

Psalm 37:4
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart.

it's so cool man.. and you can check out the meaning of petitions.. =)
God is so amazing!

2009-04-20T15:18:00.003+08:00

我永远不会忘记

主你那丰富恩典

如今我在天父怀中

因为你舍下自己

你不看我的过去

只是完全接纳我

主你的爱何等伟大

我的心完全融化

我亲爱救主

我心何等感谢

你单单在意

我这爱你的心

我愿一身

追求跟随我主

谦卑为你

服侍这世界

我亲爱救主

我要一身敬拜

在我生命中

你是唯一的爱

毫无保留

我愿献上所有

何等渴慕

能为你而活

耶稣我主

so touched so touched.. sometimes chinese is so amazing..

2009-04-18T00:32:00.003+08:00

hmm.. i think God is good.. started the day 'well'.. ended the day better.. really trusting and relying on prayers alot.. and i'm seeing alot of things happening.. i'm tired but not so tired.. haha.. i love You.. =)

2009-04-17T15:54:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. today could be my worst day yet.. don't know why but seemed to knock into quite a number of people today in the morning.. or rather people knock onto me? thank God i wasn't angry.. so upon reaching i went to pray at the side.. today's lesson is Pst Ming again.. as usual.. it is very interesting.. and Pst is such a funny guy.. his expressions are really very dramatic.. but somehow.. at some parts i think i wasn't concentrating.. maybe because i've got the notes.. and sometimes i was focusing on copying the notes onto my book, i didnt catch what he said.. hmm and i didnt manage to laugh nearing the end.. slight smile probably.. haha..

when my team members joked about me, before the break ends, i dont know why but my heart just sunk sooo low.. suddenly i feel so sad.. hmm.. had a struggle in my thoughts when lesson was going on.. i think i'm really good at putting on a strong front.. i still laughed and smiled when school ends, as per normal and even went for the choir audition; i didn't sign up but just try for fun.. mr goh if you're reading this, the struggle is one part of the conversation that we had the other day.. this post is emo again.. haha

2009-04-16T17:44:00.002+08:00

to my sot team mates..

10 is the no. for the law..

so we should always obey the law..

so meaning the girls are always law abiding.. =X

haha okay shall stop being flaky here..

and don't be so serious about the 10 please.. :)

2009-04-14T21:28:00.003+08:00

it's a brand new start! i mean brand new topic Going On To Perfection.. and Pastor Ming is sooo funny.. i think i love it everytime he preaches..

'You don't call me? Nevermind. I WILL CALL YOU!'

'If even you reject me 1000 times, nevermind. I WILL STILL CALL YOU!'

this is soo funny.. what a way to illustrate faithful member..

i shall proclaim something..

i will not for a morsel of 'chair' give up my salvation..

ask me about it! hahah..

shortcuts into the Holy of Holies?

shortcuts into a girl's heart?

there must be a prescribed way..

well.. that's all for today folks.. stay tuned for more.. hahah =)

p.s i'm sick.. pray for me please.. and you can pray for strength for everyone in SOT.. hahah..

2009-04-13T15:04:00.003+08:00

easter this year was fantastic.. soo many people came.. and the response for altar call is like.. woahhh.. the aisles in front were all packed with people..! thank God that my cousins came, even though they didnt respond.. and the services were extraordinary.. it's not like the first time i watched the drama where 'Jesus' will come from the back during crucifixion.. but the atmosphere was soo... soo touched by it.. watched the drama 3 times and every time i almost teared.. praying for my cousins.. now is the time for follow-ups.. planning and planning..

i think that guitarists play rather important roles man.. and now there are so many people who knows how to play the guitar.. especially serving in children's church.. if i don't go serve at my age group(to play for my service), they will need to find a replacement which is quite a difficult job.. why? must know the songs, must be able to serve at that timing, must be willing, must have a certain standard.... even though there is another guy who serves in the same service as me.. but both of us couldn't serve on the last sat during easter! i'll feel bad and worry for anna if she is able to find a guitarist in time.. need more guitarists in children's church!! haha.. big days are always like this..

mr goh and i had a talk again some days back..
me: wah.. i have alot of things to do man.. many things still at the back of my head..
him: ooh.. how come when you have so many things to do, you still have time to think of this?
hmm.. i was thinking bout it.. maybe i'm not so busy afterall? or maybe i need to utilise my time well so that i'll be able to finish everything.. and probably whenever i have rest time, consciously or subconsciously i will think of that.. haha.. was reading Faith by Phil Pringle for my assignment.. decision making..
'We fear decision making. Not only does it opens doors ahead of us, but it demands that we close our options to alternatives. This can be very unnerving.'
haha i need to make a decision..
and oh.. mr goh.. you already made the decision in your heart alr.. you just asked me to await my approval.. haha.. and to let me know..

my mum(hx) is so nice.. thank you for the blessings and the encouragement.. haha.. sometimes even though she knows not the details, but she is always very encouraging to me.. i'm touched.. i love you mum..
hahah.. oh btw, mk drew the spongebob!! you know what i mean..hahah kidding..

p.s xt said that 我是过动儿.. 我不是，我只是比较喜欢说话吧了..

2009-04-08T15:13:00.002+08:00

just return from sot.. on my way home, i was thinking of something.. hmm.. when i have a revelation from God, who are the people that i can share with? who are those that are willing to listen to the words that i hear from God? haha.. i guess i joke around too many times.. even when i say i had a revelation, people think that i'm just saying randomly again.. but, there are people who are always willing to listen to me.. you know who you are.. just some.. ahahah.. of course my good friend.. like what Pst Phil said during Men United, you must have a close friend whom you can share anything to, even some things that you feel difficult to talk to your cgl about.. and i literally share everything to him.. especially those things that i ALWAYS share and comment.. hahaha yes mum?? you know what i meant.. and i'll always be obedient to listen to what my mum asked me to do.. haha!! going to work now and give out easter flyers to my cousin at the same time.. time check 1521.. byeee

2009-04-01T23:12:00.004+08:00

SOT today is so exciting.. start off the day with annabel leading..! but then.. i was pretty excited until i started jumping.. suddenly i feel feverish and my head felt pain.. i think its because i drank the teh-0 bing.. so after elevate.. i'm feeling pretty bad migraine.. all the way till worship.. and like tuesday.. we had quite a long worship.. so during the 2nd or 3rd worship song, i was praying for healing from God when everyone is worshipping.. i just laid my hand on my forehead and prayed.. but then.. my mind was telling me 'what are you doing? everyone is worshipping and you're holding your forehead? what if somebody sees you?' my first reaction was oh ya.. will be quite awkward if someone sees me and think what i'm doing.. but my head was having quite some pain.. then i heard the Lord speaking to me..

'Is it better for me to heal you or not to heal you? and let you continue worshipping with the pain?'

and God reminded me of what Jesus said when He wanted to perform healing during the Sabbath.. i was like that's so true.. how am i to worship and focus when i'm having such great pain.. so i then continued putting my hand on my forehead and prayed for healing.. many times i did.. and the pain diminished gradually.. it was still during worship.. then i heard God speaking again..

'you shall be bold from now on. if you have faith, you shall have NO fear for I am with you.'

i'm so shocked by the word God uses and i'm like..

'God, you mean some fears? or you meant that i'll be able to overcome fears?'

and all of a sudden, i knew that i had lack of faith for a moment.. this is quite cool for me.. and before Pastor Derek ends the worship, he specially prayed for healing upon migraine and headache ONLY.. it was really really really amazing.. i felt like i'm having a long talk with God during worship.. and before worship ends, my stomach hurts a little.. guess it's the after effect of the drink.. i was like oh no! i will to leave the hall to go to the toilet how? so when worship ended, Pastor said,' you need a break.. now is 1010, come back at 1040..' i was like =O.. a break?!?! 30 mins LONG?! the longest break we had so far.. it was so real..

ps.. i told xt about the amazing thing of pastor praying only for migraine and headache!

2009-03-30T23:09:00.003+08:00

oh!! i almost forgot to blog this.. this is sooo funny.. xt was doing chinese interpretation for sot today.. and as she's not so familiar with chinese verses, we cannot blame her.. but it's really funny.. tim wan saw me and he called out to me in the auditorium..
tim: what is xt doing?
mx: what you mean?
tim: what 靠近神,神就靠近你?
mx: hahaha..
Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.. if you can imagine tim wan saying that.. you'll laugh.. hahaha..

OH MY GOODNESS.. why is everyone so funny
i was just asking hf who is the iris that she lent her books to..
mx: hey
hf: ya?
mx: who's the iris that you lend your books to?
hf: i can ask her to bring this weekend..
mx: nono.. i've already contacted her..
hf: orh okay.. she's from sheryl's cg.. one of the old sch dancers..
hahaha SO FUNNY MAN.. old school dancers..

2009-03-30T21:47:00.002+08:00

met up with hf on sunday before leaving airport.. with her 2 members whom i dont know.. and this is what she told her members about me at swensens..
hf: oh ya.. he likes to ask alot of qns..
mx: how you know i like to ask alot of qns.?
and all of them burst out laughing.. duhh.. haha

sot starts today! haha pretty excited.. anyway.. some guy(i forgot who) told me in sot God will test me in my 3 weakest temptations.. soo.. i guess it's coming soon..

2009-03-28T00:45:00.002+08:00

after men's meeting on the way home with jianting.. we were on the bus talking about some people who are newly promoted.. so he was saying he's supposed to be promoted also.. and the first thing that came to my mind is that i'm still not.. that was just a first thought and i really didnt mind.. then i heard God speaking to me..

'you do not have to be mindful of the promotion that people can see.. indeed promotion comes from Me.. but what I see is more than that.. your heart which I see is what human eyes cannot see.. and your faithfulness is all that matters..'

2009-03-26T02:01:00.002+08:00

haha this is random.. but i saw this coincidentally and thought that the colors are pretty matching.. green red green red green red.. haha.

2009-03-25T10:15:00.003+08:00

i was just praying for a little while before I went to sleep last night. And the Lord spoke to me.

"Be bold for you are called to do this. Do not be afraid for I am with You," says the Lord. "Do not be mindful of what others think of you, but what I think."

and i saw vividly the vision and the things that i'll do..

and i was so touched i slept very well last night.. and someone woke me up with a 'morning call'.. haha..

2009-03-25T10:09:00.003+08:00

I saw this post outside the lift at the block where my tuition kid stays.. it goes like this..

DONT PROCASINATE

Experienced tutor teaching all levels english maths science. Interested please call 9********.

this is so funny! who dares to ask you to teach english?!?!

2009-03-21T23:32:00.001+08:00

i swallowed a chewing gum yday.. i am so annoyed.. i still feel that it's inside my stomach refusing to come out.. something that cannot be digested is stuck inside me.. ahhh!

2009-03-17T19:13:00.002+08:00

k was crazy!!! haha but quite fun though.. so sorry if you guys think i hog on to the mike.. hf says the same thing too.. wahaha.. and mr dong is mad man.. every song is chosen by you??!! hmmm.. too short a period.. cannot finish singing.. not enough air time to satisfy my singing desire.. haha kidding.. anyway.. is it obvious that i prefer s out of s.h.e? that kind? hmmm glam type.. haha
to xt.. 曾凯玹 is quite pretty still.. princess? oh! 达虹 is quite pretty too..

2009-03-15T21:17:00.002+08:00

so touched by the love blessings.. thank you to jeanie, huifang, mingli, jackson, amelia... and most importantly my good friend mr. Jian Ting.. really very touched.. thanks~

2009-03-15T01:07:00.002+08:00

i was shocked.. jj asked me to lead praise?? man too shock to react.. i feel that it's pretty bad but it's an experience..

2009-03-13T01:44:00.000+08:00

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haha.. i think it's funny..

2009-03-12T02:10:00.002+08:00

i had this weird dream.. maybe not weird but quite scary though.. maybe because of the effect of watching 十三鞭..

2009-03-10T00:37:00.002+08:00

oh.. jon invited me to his bday bbq.. so fast april's coming.. what am i gonna do with mine? maybe nothing ba.. hmm

2009-03-09T19:59:00.002+08:00

hmm.. went back to student care centre last friday to relief.. pretty slack.. nothing much to do.. just required to take the p4 class.. only those who didn't complete their past assessment are needed to finish.. the children were playful, noisy and like to disturb new teachers.. but then! i visited before so some of them remembered me.. but there's something that touched me.. there is this kid called damien.. the teacher told me that he's quite playful and will try to 'paw' teacher.. indeed, he is very distracted and playful and he is supposed to do his math assessment.. he completed it and i marked them, majority were wrong.. so i asked him to redo.. he told me he didnt know how and i taught him step by step literally.. all the qns are only multiplication using the normal method.. so after i taught him, he was like,' huh, so easy ah..'

and so he started doing and got 1 or 2 corrects in a row.. but because he was distracted by the other children playing in the room, he kept begging me to let him complete after he wakes up from the nap.. in scc, they have a nap at around 3 plus to 4 plus.. so at first i rejected him, but in the end, he didnt complete so he went to sleep. and he promised me with his pinky that he'll do when he wakes up.. after everyone woke up, i was inside the class just maintaining discipline and the rest who had no more work went to watch tv.. he came to class looking at me for a while.. i totally forgot that he had to do work.. and he asked me,' teacher where's my book?' MAN.. i was so surprise at his action.. what touches me most was that when it was around time to leave.. he actually asked to give me a hug cause he said he won't see me anymore.. haha i was pretty shock at first.. but it was very sweet of him though..

i have many many things to plan and do. i have many things to pray for. i need to transform another me..

2009-03-09T19:46:00.002+08:00

this is what i get after doing a quiz.. haha..

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2009-03-02T20:45:00.002+08:00

watching campus superstar 09.. the contestant c6 shared about her family and indeed she's really brave to do all that and continued singing because of her mum.. her father said, every family has its own predicament.. i don't know bout many others.. but i know about mine.. had some arguments with my parents just now.. really hate the fact that they didn't study much when they were young.. hate the fact that they don't understand english.. hate it when i can't explain things to them in dialect.. hate it when they quarrelled over finances problem.. hate it when i know my dad's been gambling when we already in lack at home.. hate it when they like to shout at me at minor faults which are ridiculous.. over some ants in the house? just because they claimed that i did not clean the kitchen properly causing many ants to run around in the kitchen.. what nonsense?! just clean up the mess and that's all? mum just reached home and kept complaining bout my dad, money.. complaining bout the past.. OH MAN PLS, you can't change the past anymore.. complain so much for what? and they don't listen to things i wanna explain to them.. ahhh!!

just feeling kind of irritated, angered.. emotional.. praying for sooo many things.. i hate to look at circumstances..

2009-02-23T00:27:00.001+08:00

so good to be born rich.. i wish i were.. no troubles over finances.. haha rob bank ah!
*praying*

2009-02-18T00:17:00.002+08:00

好朋友不一定要常见面

常见面的也不一定是好朋友

2009-02-16T15:22:00.004+08:00

爱相随

别想你忍不住我提醒自己

伤了心有些事也要过去

心很痛痛的不想再做我自己

别回头请已去缘已尽

很想你也不是因为失去你

爱了你用尽我全心全力

一生情只因为这一次相遇

请难了难再续难再续

人分飞爱相随

哪怕用一生去追

我又怎么能追得回

与你相慰

我为你痴为你累

风雨我都不后悔

我又怎么有路可退

曾经深情(我如何面对）

你给了谁

haha.. weird after v day.. but was listening to it and it seemed touching..

2009-02-16T01:26:00.003+08:00

how i feel all these while..

actually.. it's really hard for me.. i know i'm not that close to you guys.. but at least we have good entertaining fellowship.. able to talk freely to you guys.. about anything and sometimes abit too much, so i'm sorry haha.. but if you realise.. most of the times you guys talk among the both of you.. the 'codes' that you(s) used.. i seem to be out of the conversation most of the time.. i feel left out.. i don know what you(s) are saying.. i don feel part of the clique..and many a times, a voice will tell me that i'm not fit to be part of you and i feel like withdrawing.. felt it again today also.. and sometimes when i wanna say something.. you(s) will be distracted and start another topic when i haven finish what i wanna say.. and all the more especially i'm not close to your flowers (anymore).. it's kinda weird when i don know what to say when we're with them.. cause all of you can talk among yourselves.. but i don know what to say.. especially when people do remember the past.. haha i've tried to change but the fact is a scar is left.. and the atmosphere is always so awkward so weird.. so i'd rather not say a thing.. and when you(s) are busy with them.. i'll be left aside..

though sometimes i feel left out.. sometimes i may seemed pissed.. but when i'm home.. i'll eventually forget everything.. and i mean it.. whenever you guys call me out, even if i'm busy or something.. i just don feel like rejecting you guys.. i'll always try to meet if possible.. because i'm feeling the joy even before we meet.. though sometimes we do silly things and big sacrificial actions like today.. it's actually quite fun.. not because i'm _ _ _ _ therefore i agreed but i know that it'll bring laughter and joy to others and myself.. (that's why i thought of joining the drama ministry before haha) really enjoyed myself =).. thank you for thinking so highly of me..

p.s
1) i really still miss you mummy even if i haven been asking you out.. i'm afraid you're busy.. and there is really alot of things going on within the cg.. so sometimes i may forget bout you =X while busy planning and doing other stuffs..

2) actually i wanna blog about something but i couldn't remember.. haha i need my inspirations back..

2009-02-08T21:40:00.002+08:00

friday cg was prett good.. so rush and busy but funny.. all of us were like preparing things for maoshun.. on another hand, we were preparing something for jj.. think maoshun is really touched.. i was too by what he said about this cg.. that this cg has alot of initiatives, very caring and friendly.. cant remember exactly what he said but the way he say it is touching.. he was surprised when we celebrated his birthday.. and all the more when he was presented with a trophy with 'Best Songwriter Ang Mao Shun Benjamin' engraved on it.. jj said he can see it everyday and maybe one day it'll happen.. haha.. then after that, everyone was like taking turns to hide in the room to sign on the singlet for jj for his official taking over.. so funny cause some of us are suppose to meet him but we're like busy.. anyhow it was fun..

and i went mind cafe after cg with ac soccer gang till 3pm.. no 5N already by that time so went jon's house to sleep a while cause morning meeting they cg guys to play bball at aljunied.. super super tired yday after the game.. still had to serve cch at expo after that.. oh before that, went to weiloong's place with bingxun.. they asked me join them for a while since i have time before i need to go serve at expo and because i have nothing to till then.. and bingxun like fetched me on cab cause he had to go somewhere in bedok to visit his grandma i think.. so he like paid most of the cab fare.. so nice man..

cch was quite fulfilled.. some children were so nice.. so sweet when the children just sit next to you or like climbing on you.. but one saw a plaster on my arm and he asked why.. i told him i fell down.. then another girl asked and he answered for me.. so funny in a way but usually children dont remember alot of things.. and first time i took a group of 4-year-old children for art & craft.. not first time taking a group but the 4-year-old.. they were so funny.. this week is a major one cause they were suppose to make a friendship tree for the whole service.. so each of them had apples that were to be pasted on the tree.. some were coloured by them last week and there is one apple that a child drew a car inside.. so funny man.. but i was very tired and meeting hf so i need to leave early.. felt a little bad.. anyway it was good..

today's service so funny.. though i was tired.. but it's impossible to fall asleep.. the drama.. hahaha.. and it's kind of funny every time i see sheila on stage.. it's so funny the last reply of the guy that his wife almost laughed out..
wife: i'm going out to meet susan
husband stands up: but i want to make love (the way he say it is so funny, a little kiddish, a little pleading kind)
wife: then what about her?
husband: she can wait but i can't wait
it's hahahahahaha.. and the Love Bank thing is cool.. Love Unit as currency.. pretty girls whom i have interaction with automatically has +100 LU in my Love Bank.. hahaha okay kidding.. it was a random thought.. okay.. this week is a fulfilling week..

2009-02-06T01:35:00.002+08:00

haha.. watching 娱乐百分百.. so funny man.. xiao zhu always act the 'bad guy' while xiao gui be the 'good guy'.. ahhh.. and he's shallow =p.. cant stand it.. hahah.. okay this is random.. i think i forgotten what i wanna say..

2009-02-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

meet junjie just now to have a drink.. to just talk and fellowship.. and also brought something that he asked me to make for maoshun.. guess he wont be reading this so it's okay... hahaha.. please dont tell him YET.. it's a surprise! it's quite cool i think.. anyway had some talks with junjie.. we can actually talk about our secondary school times.. haha.. and he asked me how many gfs i have.. i told him none cause i'm a very shy person.. then he followed up and asked if i like anyone now.. man.. i don know how to answer him.. i just told him not really and he said means have.. i was like, 'nothing much', so as he probe abit, i managed to changed topic and asked him something else.. it's really nothing much so i didnt wanna tell him anything.. hx said.. it's not wrong to like someone.. but what i do that matters.. so ya.. haha.. but it was quite funny that we could actually talk so long.. talk bout sports, soccer basketball etc.. and see him play games in his laptop.. hahaha..

p.s: my favourite pillow on my bed now is the cushion
okay this is random but haha =)..

搞笑

2009-01-27T03:17:00.004+08:00

那一条牙膏在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡想闹就闹
好快乐少了人唠叨

蓝色的碗盘多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉 -->> nono!
我受不了

还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎么熬
这么多年早就喜欢有你的撒娇
我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道
你好不好

我们的小狗食量便好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
他习惯睡觉的床位少了一双脚
所以他常常看着门口睡不着

nice song.. with emo lyrics.. haha

2009-01-19T21:25:00.002+08:00

hmm.. gonna ord.. so many things to do all of a sudden.. or maybe im not ready for ord.. NOOOO.. i'm all ready man..! need to adjust to another 'new life' waiting for me.. time to get a job.. really need money now.. need to prepare alot of things before sat comes..

man.. my pc really... makes me steam.. so much so that i wanna see him go db if i really catch him doing anything wrong.. sigh.. why wanna give us so much trouble? im not so pissed now but his face really.. argh..

goodbye...

2009-01-16T23:50:00.006+08:00

just came back from cg.. first time playing for cg.. haha.. sort of excited.. but not so afterall.. first and last time playing with hx.. i thought it was just a normal one.. but thank God for encouraging members.. 2 of them actually said it was quite good.. was practising the appreciation song for hx.. wei loong asked me if i played and sang for any girl.. haha.. so hx's the first.. my members asked to watch midnight show but i decided to cab home with hx.. last time from cg! haha.. i think i'll miss her.. anyway, i chose to sing 你的肩膀.. i thought it's a very touching and nice song.. hx said the person who changed the lyrics must be someone who's with her for very long.. it was by me though.. im so gonna cry.. haha

那些日子当你不在我身边

整个世界都不对哦

还能这样安静的和你依偎

受过的苦都无所谓哦

进进退退我们之间

故事有点迂回

轰轰烈烈哭过几回

从来没有后悔

依靠着你的肩膀

有风的味道也有雨的沧桑

为我们付出许多

爱你是我们最固执的地方

还好再长的夜总是会天亮

你的栽培让我们都成长哦

爱就是你的肩膀

能负担我们所有快乐悲伤

相信你许下的愿望

一辈子的时间那么的漫长

你的未来必定会开花成长

我们的祝福会至下半场

2008-12-31T15:29:00.002+08:00

jt says i like girls who are hard to get.. those that are challenging..
xt says i am the most shallow guy on earth..
hx thinks i like flowers..
hmmm..

2008-12-30T20:01:00.002+08:00

hmm.. i just realised.. i know alot of people.. but not many are close to me.. maybe i should reconsider friendships.. i'll start loving more..

握紧的双手你能抓得住什么给你海阔和天空又有什么用

我们都骗不过自己我们都太过自信

才让我们都忘了珍惜

2008-12-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

was reading ken's blog.. and was thinking bout something he said.. our meetings would not be special if we do it too often.. isn't it true.. people treasures things that are rare.. hard to get.. things that are still there or can be gotten easily are often not treasured as much.. hmm

sun left.. it's gonna be quite a while to see her again.. so touched by all her works.. even though it's not the 1st time watching her humanitarian works video, but i still almost teared and touched by what she did.. all the poor children.. really felt like being part of that.. saw some of the cch people in it.. it's so nice to be part of the works isnt it.. she's really a good example or the cultural mandate.. and also fulfilling the 2 pillars of her walk with God, loving God wholeheartedly, loving people fervently..

i was so sad.. i knew it to be a joke but then.. it just make things more awkward? though they laughed but argh.. joke once twice okay.. but always.. sigh.. it makes me feel so awkward now to even face or talk to them.. hmm..
i think many people do not know me well or knew me to be a wrong person..
i am not that extrovert, i tried to be.. i am really a shy person but i tried to make myself more thick skinned for the Lord.. and it turns out i have to be thick skinned for many circumstances.. i usually keep things to myself, maybe except to jianting.. sometimes i feel so lonely by myself, at home, in my room.. i love to pray.. God makes me feel that there's still someone always for me.. i cry many times in my room praying, kneeing before Him.. i think i'm a good actor in covering my heartfelt emotions.. often im down but i'll still show my happy side to people.. my family is not a perfect family.. seen many cases with people having single parent, but me having both parents have my own family problems.. i hate to say it but money is a big problem.. I wanna leave all my Old Sins, my Old Defeats, my Old Conflicts and my Old Victories in 2008 behind..

*prays* God help me.. help me enter the new year being a new, strong young man