i love making friends.. but i want close friends too..
people that will care and understand me more..
sometimes it's very tiring to always take initiative..
i need to be more open and more loving to people..

an end

sot is coming to an end so soon..realized i haven been blogging..haha so busy recently..assignments after assignments.. this week just cleared 10 topical sermons!
felt so relieved..next will be preaching test.. and then i will be starting university soon.. everything is coming to an end.. or is it?

i want to blog about my jakarta mission trip.. it was so fulfilling.. i wish i will never forget the experience.. i used to be quite afraid of going mission trip.. but after going there, i wanna go again.. it's really touching to see the people really hungry and open even though there is the language barrier.. we communicate spirit to spirit.. so literally, my team and i we could sense their hunger in wanting us to be there to minister to them.. quite an experience..

so many things i wanna say.. but not sure if it's apt to say it here.. haha

i wish you would understand
i pray i would overcome
thank you for your prophecy
even though i know you won't be reading
i want to be a greater man for God
help me in my weakness..

designing wonderful blogs not my style
or just not me to do design
what i like is to pen down my thoughts
just want to share my feelings
feeling sooo sad
think i'm being mistaken by people
something changed in the atmosphere
i just sensed it
life and death lies in the power of the tongue
just emo..

when you gain something,
you will lose another thing
you can't have both
so you got to make a choice
AND
i hope i made a right choice

9 weeks more

was talking about 9 weeks left to sot grad
and Pst Bobby just reminded us today
time is so short and precious
we need to enjoy every moment of it
i think i'm starting my emo again haha

forged great friendships out of nothing
never imagine all of you were like this
love to hang out with you guys
hope nothing will turn the friendship sour
i just wanna be a good friend
spoken deep down from my heart

a pure heart
wish people understand

some things are not meant to be said
once said, many things change

International Idol

international idol is great man! i think it's a great success..
the atmosphere was high.. performances were extraordinary..
photo taking was cool.. i think adi and pamela were good!
OH.. must blog about this!! this is what sheila corrected..
v said the person cant see or something..
s: can't see means blind..
SOO FUNNY!!

haha.. and had a great fellowship after the whole thing..
haven had a fellowship with so many cool people for a long time
on the way home, don't know why but alighted with the rest at pioneer
after parting from the rest, i walked home slowly
then i started praying.. sometimes walking home is good
probably this is why i was led into alighting the bus..

parable parable

i had a dream today
from 7am to 930am
the dream was so vivid
i thought it was real
i miss that feeling
it was red
with x-ray and juliet
weird combination
only jt will know

today on my way to expo ,don't know why
but felt super dry, seemed very tired
wasn't in my best condition to serve
especially at expo, soo many people crowding
cause irritation in my heart

i started praying to God, breathe in, breathe out
calm myself down, clear my mind
asked God to strengthen me
prayed for God to fill me

everything will be okay
and God is really amazing
even at your worst condition
God can make everything alright

reached children's church, started practising the songs
felt so peaceful and calmed
service started, manpower very little
but it seemed quite alright

we were able to control the service
though it wasn't the best
but considering the manpower
i think we did well, i love the children
i am bias, even when they say we shouldn't

i pray for everything to be alright

today Pst Tan talked about the giant of indifference
we can be ignorant, but we must never lose our passion
with passion, we can still gain knowledge
we must keep our passion, our character
always depending on God

and i was caught there and then
sometimes when i'm too busy,
i will kind of depend on my own strength
and i realise how important it is to depend on God
things may fail if by myself
but with God, things will succeed

i need to continue to pray about my prayers
and last night i only slept for 3.5hrs
this morning i was very very tired
while walking to the bus stop
i pray for God's strength to be with me
during lesson i was really quite awake
though i almost fell asleep a while
but i felt more awake than past few lessons
when i had more rest

pray pray pray,

God please answer my prayers..