meet junjie just now to have a drink.. to just talk and fellowship.. and also brought something that he asked me to make for maoshun.. guess he wont be reading this so it's okay... hahaha.. please dont tell him YET.. it's a surprise! it's quite cool i think.. anyway had some talks with junjie.. we can actually talk about our secondary school times.. haha.. and he asked me how many gfs i have.. i told him none cause i'm a very shy person.. then he followed up and asked if i like anyone now.. man.. i don know how to answer him.. i just told him not really and he said means have.. i was like, 'nothing much', so as he probe abit, i managed to changed topic and asked him something else.. it's really nothing much so i didnt wanna tell him anything.. hx said.. it's not wrong to like someone.. but what i do that matters.. so ya.. haha.. but it was quite funny that we could actually talk so long.. talk bout sports, soccer basketball etc.. and see him play games in his laptop.. hahaha..

p.s: my favourite pillow on my bed now is the cushion
okay this is random but haha =)..

搞笑

那一条牙膏 在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡 想闹就闹
好快乐少了人唠叨

蓝色的碗盘 多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角 无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑 借着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉 -->> nono!
我受不了

还在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎么熬
这么多年 早就喜欢 有你的撒娇
我想我能熬 但是至少要让我知道
你好不好

我们的小狗 食量便好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
他习惯睡觉的床位 少了一双脚
所以他常常看着门口睡不着

nice song.. with emo lyrics.. haha

hmm.. gonna ord.. so many things to do all of a sudden.. or maybe im not ready for ord.. NOOOO.. i'm all ready man..! need to adjust to another 'new life' waiting for me.. time to get a job.. really need money now.. need to prepare alot of things before sat comes..

man.. my pc really... makes me steam.. so much so that i wanna see him go db if i really catch him doing anything wrong.. sigh.. why wanna give us so much trouble? im not so pissed now but his face really.. argh..

goodbye...

just came back from cg.. first time playing for cg.. haha.. sort of excited.. but not so afterall.. first and last time playing with hx.. i thought it was just a normal one.. but thank God for encouraging members.. 2 of them actually said it was quite good.. was practising the appreciation song for hx.. wei loong asked me if i played and sang for any girl.. haha.. so hx's the first.. my members asked to watch midnight show but i decided to cab home with hx.. last time from cg! haha.. i think i'll miss her.. anyway, i chose to sing 你的肩膀.. i thought it's a very touching and nice song.. hx said the person who changed the lyrics must be someone who's with her for very long.. it was by me though.. im so gonna cry.. haha

那些日子当你不在我身边

整个世界都不对哦

还能这样安静的和你依偎

受过的苦都无所谓哦

进进退退我们之间

故事有点迂回

轰轰烈烈哭过几回

从来没有后悔

依靠着你的肩膀

有风的味道也有雨的沧桑

为我们付出许多

爱你是我们最固执的地方

还好再长的夜总是会天亮

你的栽培让我们都成长哦

爱就是你的肩膀

能负担我们所有快乐悲伤

相信你许下的愿望

一辈子的时间那么的漫长

你的未来必定会开花成长

我们的祝福会至下半场

jt says i like girls who are hard to get.. those that are challenging..
xt says i am the most shallow guy on earth..
hx thinks i like flowers..
hmmm..

hmm.. i just realised.. i know alot of people.. but not many are close to me.. maybe i should reconsider friendships.. i'll start loving more..

握紧的双手你能抓得住什么 给你海阔和天空又有什么用

我们都骗不过自己 我们都太过自信

才让我们都忘了珍惜

was reading ken's blog.. and was thinking bout something he said.. our meetings would not be special if we do it too often.. isn't it true.. people treasures things that are rare.. hard to get.. things that are still there or can be gotten easily are often not treasured as much.. hmm

sun left.. it's gonna be quite a while to see her again.. so touched by all her works.. even though it's not the 1st time watching her humanitarian works video, but i still almost teared and touched by what she did.. all the poor children.. really felt like being part of that.. saw some of the cch people in it.. it's so nice to be part of the works isnt it.. she's really a good example or the cultural mandate.. and also fulfilling the 2 pillars of her walk with God, loving God wholeheartedly, loving people fervently..

i was so sad.. i knew it to be a joke but then.. it just make things more awkward? though they laughed but argh.. joke once twice okay.. but always.. sigh.. it makes me feel so awkward now to even face or talk to them.. hmm..
i think many people do not know me well or knew me to be a wrong person..
i am not that extrovert, i tried to be.. i am really a shy person but i tried to make myself more thick skinned for the Lord.. and it turns out i have to be thick skinned for many circumstances.. i usually keep things to myself, maybe except to jianting.. sometimes i feel so lonely by myself, at home, in my room.. i love to pray.. God makes me feel that there's still someone always for me.. i cry many times in my room praying, kneeing before Him.. i think i'm a good actor in covering my heartfelt emotions.. often im down but i'll still show my happy side to people.. my family is not a perfect family.. seen many cases with people having single parent, but me having both parents have my own family problems.. i hate to say it but money is a big problem.. I wanna leave all my Old Sins, my Old Defeats, my Old Conflicts and my Old Victories in 2008 behind..

*prays* God help me.. help me enter the new year being a new, strong young man

was reading cecilia's post..
guess people don't really know well too..
the inside is much different..
the inner struggles..
just like her, i never like to show the emotional side of me..
ego? maybe.. had a talk with jianting same days back..
we all need to learn more.. grow more.. mature more..

依靠着你的肩膀
有风的味道也有你的SUNSHINE
为我去过了远方
爱你SUN是我最固执的地方
还好再长的夜总是会天亮
我终于等到你回来家乡

SUN是我们的肩膀
能聆听我的所有快乐悲伤
相信你许下的愿望
一辈子的时间那么的漫长
你的梦想必定会开花成长
我们的坚持会至下半场

an old friend

haven seen you for a long long time.. kinda missing you.. remembering how enthusiastic you were.. how eccentric you were.. how we got together to pray for school.. and the test tubes that you made.. reminded of you when i saw someone who is like you.. prays for you..