Tuesday, 10 March 2009
Monday, 9 March 2009
hmm.. went back to student care centre last friday to relief.. pretty slack.. nothing much to do.. just required to take the p4 class.. only those who didn't complete their past assessment are needed to finish.. the children were playful, noisy and like to disturb new teachers.. but then! i visited before so some of them remembered me.. but there's something that touched me.. there is this kid called damien.. the teacher told me that he's quite playful and will try to 'paw' teacher.. indeed, he is very distracted and playful and he is supposed to do his math assessment.. he completed it and i marked them, majority were wrong.. so i asked him to redo.. he told me he didnt know how and i taught him step by step literally.. all the qns are only multiplication using the normal method.. so after i taught him, he was like,' huh, so easy ah..'
and so he started doing and got 1 or 2 corrects in a row.. but because he was distracted by the other children playing in the room, he kept begging me to let him complete after he wakes up from the nap.. in scc, they have a nap at around 3 plus to 4 plus.. so at first i rejected him, but in the end, he didnt complete so he went to sleep. and he promised me with his pinky that he'll do when he wakes up.. after everyone woke up, i was inside the class just maintaining discipline and the rest who had no more work went to watch tv.. he came to class looking at me for a while.. i totally forgot that he had to do work.. and he asked me,' teacher where's my book?' MAN.. i was so surprise at his action.. what touches me most was that when it was around time to leave.. he actually asked to give me a hug cause he said he won't see me anymore.. haha i was pretty shock at first.. but it was very sweet of him though..
i have many many things to plan and do. i have many things to pray for. i need to transform another me..
and so he started doing and got 1 or 2 corrects in a row.. but because he was distracted by the other children playing in the room, he kept begging me to let him complete after he wakes up from the nap.. in scc, they have a nap at around 3 plus to 4 plus.. so at first i rejected him, but in the end, he didnt complete so he went to sleep. and he promised me with his pinky that he'll do when he wakes up.. after everyone woke up, i was inside the class just maintaining discipline and the rest who had no more work went to watch tv.. he came to class looking at me for a while.. i totally forgot that he had to do work.. and he asked me,' teacher where's my book?' MAN.. i was so surprise at his action.. what touches me most was that when it was around time to leave.. he actually asked to give me a hug cause he said he won't see me anymore.. haha i was pretty shock at first.. but it was very sweet of him though..
i have many many things to plan and do. i have many things to pray for. i need to transform another me..
this is what i get after doing a quiz.. haha..
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Monday, 2 March 2009
watching campus superstar 09.. the contestant c6 shared about her family and indeed she's really brave to do all that and continued singing because of her mum.. her father said, every family has its own predicament.. i don't know bout many others.. but i know about mine.. had some arguments with my parents just now.. really hate the fact that they didn't study much when they were young.. hate the fact that they don't understand english.. hate it when i can't explain things to them in dialect.. hate it when they quarrelled over finances problem.. hate it when i know my dad's been gambling when we already in lack at home.. hate it when they like to shout at me at minor faults which are ridiculous.. over some ants in the house? just because they claimed that i did not clean the kitchen properly causing many ants to run around in the kitchen.. what nonsense?! just clean up the mess and that's all? mum just reached home and kept complaining bout my dad, money.. complaining bout the past.. OH MAN PLS, you can't change the past anymore.. complain so much for what? and they don't listen to things i wanna explain to them.. ahhh!!
just feeling kind of irritated, angered.. emotional.. praying for sooo many things.. i hate to look at circumstances..
just feeling kind of irritated, angered.. emotional.. praying for sooo many things.. i hate to look at circumstances..
Monday, 23 February 2009
Wednesday, 18 February 2009
Monday, 16 February 2009
how i feel all these while..
actually.. it's really hard for me.. i know i'm not that close to you guys.. but at least we have good entertaining fellowship.. able to talk freely to you guys.. about anything and sometimes abit too much, so i'm sorry haha.. but if you realise.. most of the times you guys talk among the both of you.. the 'codes' that you(s) used.. i seem to be out of the conversation most of the time.. i feel left out.. i don know what you(s) are saying.. i don feel part of the clique..and many a times, a voice will tell me that i'm not fit to be part of you and i feel like withdrawing.. felt it again today also.. and sometimes when i wanna say something.. you(s) will be distracted and start another topic when i haven finish what i wanna say.. and all the more especially i'm not close to your flowers (anymore).. it's kinda weird when i don know what to say when we're with them.. cause all of you can talk among yourselves.. but i don know what to say.. especially when people do remember the past.. haha i've tried to change but the fact is a scar is left.. and the atmosphere is always so awkward so weird.. so i'd rather not say a thing.. and when you(s) are busy with them.. i'll be left aside..
though sometimes i feel left out.. sometimes i may seemed pissed.. but when i'm home.. i'll eventually forget everything.. and i mean it.. whenever you guys call me out, even if i'm busy or something.. i just don feel like rejecting you guys.. i'll always try to meet if possible.. because i'm feeling the joy even before we meet.. though sometimes we do silly things and big sacrificial actions like today.. it's actually quite fun.. not because i'm _ _ _ _ therefore i agreed but i know that it'll bring laughter and joy to others and myself.. (that's why i thought of joining the drama ministry before haha) really enjoyed myself =).. thank you for thinking so highly of me..
p.s
1) i really still miss you mummy even if i haven been asking you out.. i'm afraid you're busy.. and there is really alot of things going on within the cg.. so sometimes i may forget bout you =X while busy planning and doing other stuffs..
2) actually i wanna blog about something but i couldn't remember.. haha i need my inspirations back..
actually.. it's really hard for me.. i know i'm not that close to you guys.. but at least we have good entertaining fellowship.. able to talk freely to you guys.. about anything and sometimes abit too much, so i'm sorry haha.. but if you realise.. most of the times you guys talk among the both of you.. the 'codes' that you(s) used.. i seem to be out of the conversation most of the time.. i feel left out.. i don know what you(s) are saying.. i don feel part of the clique..and many a times, a voice will tell me that i'm not fit to be part of you and i feel like withdrawing.. felt it again today also.. and sometimes when i wanna say something.. you(s) will be distracted and start another topic when i haven finish what i wanna say.. and all the more especially i'm not close to your flowers (anymore).. it's kinda weird when i don know what to say when we're with them.. cause all of you can talk among yourselves.. but i don know what to say.. especially when people do remember the past.. haha i've tried to change but the fact is a scar is left.. and the atmosphere is always so awkward so weird.. so i'd rather not say a thing.. and when you(s) are busy with them.. i'll be left aside..
though sometimes i feel left out.. sometimes i may seemed pissed.. but when i'm home.. i'll eventually forget everything.. and i mean it.. whenever you guys call me out, even if i'm busy or something.. i just don feel like rejecting you guys.. i'll always try to meet if possible.. because i'm feeling the joy even before we meet.. though sometimes we do silly things and big sacrificial actions like today.. it's actually quite fun.. not because i'm _ _ _ _ therefore i agreed but i know that it'll bring laughter and joy to others and myself.. (that's why i thought of joining the drama ministry before haha) really enjoyed myself =).. thank you for thinking so highly of me..
p.s
1) i really still miss you mummy even if i haven been asking you out.. i'm afraid you're busy.. and there is really alot of things going on within the cg.. so sometimes i may forget bout you =X while busy planning and doing other stuffs..
2) actually i wanna blog about something but i couldn't remember.. haha i need my inspirations back..
Sunday, 8 February 2009
friday cg was prett good.. so rush and busy but funny.. all of us were like preparing things for maoshun.. on another hand, we were preparing something for jj.. think maoshun is really touched.. i was too by what he said about this cg.. that this cg has alot of initiatives, very caring and friendly.. cant remember exactly what he said but the way he say it is touching.. he was surprised when we celebrated his birthday.. and all the more when he was presented with a trophy with 'Best Songwriter Ang Mao Shun Benjamin' engraved on it.. jj said he can see it everyday and maybe one day it'll happen.. haha.. then after that, everyone was like taking turns to hide in the room to sign on the singlet for jj for his official taking over.. so funny cause some of us are suppose to meet him but we're like busy.. anyhow it was fun..
and i went mind cafe after cg with ac soccer gang till 3pm.. no 5N already by that time so went jon's house to sleep a while cause morning meeting they cg guys to play bball at aljunied.. super super tired yday after the game.. still had to serve cch at expo after that.. oh before that, went to weiloong's place with bingxun.. they asked me join them for a while since i have time before i need to go serve at expo and because i have nothing to till then.. and bingxun like fetched me on cab cause he had to go somewhere in bedok to visit his grandma i think.. so he like paid most of the cab fare.. so nice man..
cch was quite fulfilled.. some children were so nice.. so sweet when the children just sit next to you or like climbing on you.. but one saw a plaster on my arm and he asked why.. i told him i fell down.. then another girl asked and he answered for me.. so funny in a way but usually children dont remember alot of things.. and first time i took a group of 4-year-old children for art & craft.. not first time taking a group but the 4-year-old.. they were so funny.. this week is a major one cause they were suppose to make a friendship tree for the whole service.. so each of them had apples that were to be pasted on the tree.. some were coloured by them last week and there is one apple that a child drew a car inside.. so funny man.. but i was very tired and meeting hf so i need to leave early.. felt a little bad.. anyway it was good..
today's service so funny.. though i was tired.. but it's impossible to fall asleep.. the drama.. hahaha.. and it's kind of funny every time i see sheila on stage.. it's so funny the last reply of the guy that his wife almost laughed out..
wife: i'm going out to meet susan
husband stands up: but i want to make love (the way he say it is so funny, a little kiddish, a little pleading kind)
wife: then what about her?
husband: she can wait but i can't wait
it's hahahahahaha.. and the Love Bank thing is cool.. Love Unit as currency.. pretty girls whom i have interaction with automatically has +100 LU in my Love Bank.. hahaha okay kidding.. it was a random thought.. okay.. this week is a fulfilling week..
and i went mind cafe after cg with ac soccer gang till 3pm.. no 5N already by that time so went jon's house to sleep a while cause morning meeting they cg guys to play bball at aljunied.. super super tired yday after the game.. still had to serve cch at expo after that.. oh before that, went to weiloong's place with bingxun.. they asked me join them for a while since i have time before i need to go serve at expo and because i have nothing to till then.. and bingxun like fetched me on cab cause he had to go somewhere in bedok to visit his grandma i think.. so he like paid most of the cab fare.. so nice man..
cch was quite fulfilled.. some children were so nice.. so sweet when the children just sit next to you or like climbing on you.. but one saw a plaster on my arm and he asked why.. i told him i fell down.. then another girl asked and he answered for me.. so funny in a way but usually children dont remember alot of things.. and first time i took a group of 4-year-old children for art & craft.. not first time taking a group but the 4-year-old.. they were so funny.. this week is a major one cause they were suppose to make a friendship tree for the whole service.. so each of them had apples that were to be pasted on the tree.. some were coloured by them last week and there is one apple that a child drew a car inside.. so funny man.. but i was very tired and meeting hf so i need to leave early.. felt a little bad.. anyway it was good..
today's service so funny.. though i was tired.. but it's impossible to fall asleep.. the drama.. hahaha.. and it's kind of funny every time i see sheila on stage.. it's so funny the last reply of the guy that his wife almost laughed out..
wife: i'm going out to meet susan
husband stands up: but i want to make love (the way he say it is so funny, a little kiddish, a little pleading kind)
wife: then what about her?
husband: she can wait but i can't wait
it's hahahahahaha.. and the Love Bank thing is cool.. Love Unit as currency.. pretty girls whom i have interaction with automatically has +100 LU in my Love Bank.. hahaha okay kidding.. it was a random thought.. okay.. this week is a fulfilling week..
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