had many thoughts today during sot
when Pst Aries is preaching
good or bad.. accountability.. attitude
not what you say but how you say

i just checked this verse on the amplified bible.. and it says..

Psalm 37:4
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart.

it's so cool man.. and you can check out the meaning of petitions.. =)
God is so amazing!

我永远不会忘记

主你那丰富恩典

如今我在天父怀中

因为你舍下自己

你不看我的过去

只是完全接纳我

主你的爱何等伟大

我的心完全融化

我亲爱救主

我心何等感谢

你单单在意

我这爱你的心

我愿一身

追求跟随我主

谦卑为你

服侍这世界

我亲爱救主

我要一身敬拜

在我生命中

你是唯一的爱

毫无保留

我愿献上所有

何等渴慕

能为你而活

耶稣我主

so touched so touched.. sometimes chinese is so amazing..

hmm.. i think God is good.. started the day 'well'.. ended the day better.. really trusting and relying on prayers alot.. and i'm seeing alot of things happening.. i'm tired but not so tired.. haha.. i love You.. =)

hmmm.. today could be my worst day yet.. don't know why but seemed to knock into quite a number of people today in the morning.. or rather people knock onto me? thank God i wasn't angry.. so upon reaching i went to pray at the side.. today's lesson is Pst Ming again.. as usual.. it is very interesting.. and Pst is such a funny guy.. his expressions are really very dramatic.. but somehow.. at some parts i think i wasn't concentrating.. maybe because i've got the notes.. and sometimes i was focusing on copying the notes onto my book, i didnt catch what he said.. hmm and i didnt manage to laugh nearing the end.. slight smile probably.. haha..

when my team members joked about me, before the break ends, i dont know why but my heart just sunk sooo low.. suddenly i feel so sad.. hmm.. had a struggle in my thoughts when lesson was going on.. i think i'm really good at putting on a strong front.. i still laughed and smiled when school ends, as per normal and even went for the choir audition; i didn't sign up but just try for fun.. mr goh if you're reading this, the struggle is one part of the conversation that we had the other day.. this post is emo again.. haha

to my sot team mates..

10 is the no. for the law..

so we should always obey the law..

so meaning the girls are always law abiding.. =X

haha okay shall stop being flaky here..

and don't be so serious about the 10 please.. :)

it's a brand new start! i mean brand new topic Going On To Perfection.. and Pastor Ming is sooo funny.. i think i love it everytime he preaches..

'You don't call me? Nevermind. I WILL CALL YOU!'

'If even you reject me 1000 times, nevermind. I WILL STILL CALL YOU!'

this is soo funny.. what a way to illustrate faithful member..

i shall proclaim something..

i will not for a morsel of 'chair' give up my salvation..

ask me about it! hahah..

shortcuts into the Holy of Holies?

shortcuts into a girl's heart?

there must be a prescribed way..

well.. that's all for today folks.. stay tuned for more.. hahah =)

p.s i'm sick.. pray for me please.. and you can pray for strength for everyone in SOT.. hahah..

easter this year was fantastic.. soo many people came.. and the response for altar call is like.. woahhh.. the aisles in front were all packed with people..! thank God that my cousins came, even though they didnt respond.. and the services were extraordinary.. it's not like the first time i watched the drama where 'Jesus' will come from the back during crucifixion.. but the atmosphere was soo... soo touched by it.. watched the drama 3 times and every time i almost teared.. praying for my cousins.. now is the time for follow-ups.. planning and planning..

i think that guitarists play rather important roles man.. and now there are so many people who knows how to play the guitar.. especially serving in children's church.. if i don't go serve at my age group(to play for my service), they will need to find a replacement which is quite a difficult job.. why? must know the songs, must be able to serve at that timing, must be willing, must have a certain standard.... even though there is another guy who serves in the same service as me.. but both of us couldn't serve on the last sat during easter! i'll feel bad and worry for anna if she is able to find a guitarist in time.. need more guitarists in children's church!! haha.. big days are always like this..

mr goh and i had a talk again some days back..
me: wah.. i have alot of things to do man.. many things still at the back of my head..
him: ooh.. how come when you have so many things to do, you still have time to think of this?
hmm.. i was thinking bout it.. maybe i'm not so busy afterall? or maybe i need to utilise my time well so that i'll be able to finish everything.. and probably whenever i have rest time, consciously or subconsciously i will think of that.. haha.. was reading Faith by Phil Pringle for my assignment.. decision making..
'We fear decision making. Not only does it opens doors ahead of us, but it demands that we close our options to alternatives. This can be very unnerving.'
haha i need to make a decision..
and oh.. mr goh.. you already made the decision in your heart alr.. you just asked me to await my approval.. haha.. and to let me know..

my mum(hx) is so nice.. thank you for the blessings and the encouragement.. haha.. sometimes even though she knows not the details, but she is always very encouraging to me.. i'm touched.. i love you mum..
hahah.. oh btw, mk drew the spongebob!! you know what i mean..hahah kidding..

p.s xt said that 我是过动儿.. 我不是，我只是比较喜欢说话吧了..

just return from sot.. on my way home, i was thinking of something.. hmm.. when i have a revelation from God, who are the people that i can share with? who are those that are willing to listen to the words that i hear from God? haha.. i guess i joke around too many times.. even when i say i had a revelation, people think that i'm just saying randomly again.. but, there are people who are always willing to listen to me.. you know who you are.. just some.. ahahah.. of course my good friend.. like what Pst Phil said during Men United, you must have a close friend whom you can share anything to, even some things that you feel difficult to talk to your cgl about.. and i literally share everything to him.. especially those things that i ALWAYS share and comment.. hahaha yes mum?? you know what i meant.. and i'll always be obedient to listen to what my mum asked me to do.. haha!! going to work now and give out easter flyers to my cousin at the same time.. time check 1521.. byeee

SOT today is so exciting.. start off the day with annabel leading..! but then.. i was pretty excited until i started jumping.. suddenly i feel feverish and my head felt pain.. i think its because i drank the teh-0 bing.. so after elevate.. i'm feeling pretty bad migraine.. all the way till worship.. and like tuesday.. we had quite a long worship.. so during the 2nd or 3rd worship song, i was praying for healing from God when everyone is worshipping.. i just laid my hand on my forehead and prayed.. but then.. my mind was telling me 'what are you doing? everyone is worshipping and you're holding your forehead? what if somebody sees you?' my first reaction was oh ya.. will be quite awkward if someone sees me and think what i'm doing.. but my head was having quite some pain.. then i heard the Lord speaking to me..

'Is it better for me to heal you or not to heal you? and let you continue worshipping with the pain?'

and God reminded me of what Jesus said when He wanted to perform healing during the Sabbath.. i was like that's so true.. how am i to worship and focus when i'm having such great pain.. so i then continued putting my hand on my forehead and prayed for healing.. many times i did.. and the pain diminished gradually.. it was still during worship.. then i heard God speaking again..

'you shall be bold from now on. if you have faith, you shall have NO fear for I am with you.'

i'm so shocked by the word God uses and i'm like..

'God, you mean some fears? or you meant that i'll be able to overcome fears?'

and all of a sudden, i knew that i had lack of faith for a moment.. this is quite cool for me.. and before Pastor Derek ends the worship, he specially prayed for healing upon migraine and headache ONLY.. it was really really really amazing.. i felt like i'm having a long talk with God during worship.. and before worship ends, my stomach hurts a little.. guess it's the after effect of the drink.. i was like oh no! i will to leave the hall to go to the toilet how? so when worship ended, Pastor said,' you need a break.. now is 1010, come back at 1040..' i was like =O.. a break?!?! 30 mins LONG?! the longest break we had so far.. it was so real..

ps.. i told xt about the amazing thing of pastor praying only for migraine and headache!