tired tired tired

9km FAST march yesterday.. then just finished ex Long Walk.. walk so much i almost died.. carrying a load of almost 30kg, walked for almost 14 hours.. i think my legs have grown shorter.. sigh.. finished at 3 plus this morning.. haven sleep much.. super super tired..

i think i have a new phobia

newly discovered

i hate it

service was exceedingly good
2 weeks of power packed services
it's so cool seeing Rev Phil Pringle painting
especially painting such a big cross
it's so amazing
painting and preaching at the same time
his word today reminds me again
what He's done for us
all that and that..
so touched..

anyway im home like 3 plus 4
it seems so early
sunday afternoon starts to get boring
i mean i'm bored
what to do but come home
sigh
getting ready to book in
preparing for tougher training
4 more weeks
hope it gets better every week
sometimes being in camp
with all my recce unit mates
may be more exciting
doing silly things
playing bridge.. oh
won't get to play anymore in 6 to 7 weeks time
4 SAB back to 4 SAB
8 SAB back to 8 SAB

this week is going to be a very tiring week

9km fast march tmr

40 over km Ex LongWalk

what else? unsure.. strength

a struggle between pride and righteousness..
never go cell group this week..

running through my mind

i prayed..

i cried..

night cycling on wednesday
long trip to changi village
what a quiet night
watched some soccer matches at the coffeeshop
left when the matches ended
traveled on the main roads
shorter journey but it rained
stopped at tampines for some daidees and bridge
all but wj and me cabbed back
cycled in the rain, tiring and wet
praying as i cycled in the rain
what a special time to pray, without any disturbance
many things went through my mind as i cycled
i was touched, was sad and was reminded of many things
thinking too much may not be a good thing
but sometimes thinking through
and knowing the situation may be a better thing

didn't sleep a wink
unable to sleep
went out in the afternoon
met jt, hf, darrell, rebecca and hf's 2 members
watched the game plan
what a love between a father and a daughter
went far east to eat
on the way back camp, on the train
thinking of the show, thinking of my situation
almost cried when God spoke to me
i realise i could find joy and laughter in camp
i talk alot to people i'm close and familiar with
and my unit mates hinted that i am talking alot
may OOC, and 4 SAB and 8 SAB may be separated
gonna miss some of them, bridging illegally in bunks
thank You for having such a plan for me

i love You

i hope to grow out of it

i pray for the best You have for me

help me to grow in You

it's so tiring reading my last few posts.. i myself also lazy to read when i see them.. forgot what i posted.. don't know why there are people trying to read it.. haha anyway..

not going to sunday service this week.. COS duty on sunday.. sigh..
ever since i've entered 4th SAB, i've been slacking for 7 weeks already.. next week also nothing much.. 2 days CCAC, wed to fri off.. oh ya.. this whole week i've CCAC, some course to train us with some medic's skills.. one of it is the IV, which is to inject the needle in one of the veins so that the drip can be attached.. the drip is for casualties with blood loss.. we're suppose to do it in pairs so that we'll inject each other.. i did it in one try, my friend's 1st one on me failed!! so i was being injected on both hands.. monday got to do another practice, then tuesday test!.. still have 2 more times.. 'a little' pain.. haha

this week i'd nights out on mon tues and thurs, fri book out.. practically i'm like a stay out personnel.. mon to wed, lectures whole day.. released at about 3 to 4 plus cause we did the lectures quite fast, some we had learnt in sispec.. lunch break is like 2.5 hours from 1130 to 1400.. oh ya.. yday's CCAC was cancelled too cause the medics all off.. we're supposed to have life run in the morning but change to games day.. so we woke up at 7am, skipped breakfast, games till 8 plus, went back bunk, then played cards till afternoon, skipped lunch, do abit of area cleaning, inspection(very slack one), changed civi and book out at 3 plus.. but anyway.. first 8 weeks so slack, next 8 weeks will be my RCC.. it's gonna be tough..

and oh.. last week's service was great.. very touched by the video..

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Matthew 6:33
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
Psalm 37:4
Delight yourself also in the LORD, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.

sometimes i really wish i can read minds

can i know what are you thinking

help me to be more sensitive

on public road, you learn right turn, left turn and U-turn
on off-road, you'll learn something new, a new turn..
something so difficult to teach
and you don't want to be the chosen one..

everyday has been a tiring day! waking up at 0510.. been sleeping at 10 plus which is quite early.. never used to sleep so early haha..

riding a bike is very fun eh though alot of people say that it's quite dangerous.. true cause need to beware of potential dangers.. actually it's not that bad.. i've got to ride on public road already! clocked around 172km of distance.. alot of things to take note after we went on public road.. horning is fun but didnt get to used it cause most of us will tend to slow down when we see danger instead of horning.. but i almost ran over a group of students who dashed across in front of me.. trying to be funny la.. oh.. our public road route will pass by an entrance to the PIE.. if never change lane might get squeezed by other vehicles to PIE eh and L plates cannot drive in PIE.. quite funny la my instructor always say some trainees almost went holland village.. actually the instructors said alot of funny remarks.. my friend, after riding through one round of the public route 1, came back with a story, the boy who cried wolf.. what's the moral of the story.. off your signals.. think you guys don get it.. but it's quite funny la.. tmr don have to go cause i passed (and not passed away) my balancing circuit test on the 1st attempt!! just came back cause had night riding.. at night the traffic super heavy..but still fun la.. must learn how to change lane and forcing car to slow down for you.. hahaha.. around less than 2 weeks more only.. so fast ending already.. nearing the end of my booking out everyday.. sigh

you are right

i must grow more

substance of things hoped for

evidence of things unseen

i feel so left out with you guys.. i don't understand what are you all talking about.. things not shared with me.. maybe it's really ok for you not to ask me out the next time.. i really hate this kind of feeling..

upset, left out, lost

deep thoughts

sigh..