at home now.. early eh? haha.. everyone's at the youth camp.. gotta book in later at 10pm.. this week book in so late but everyone went to camp.. aiya.. if only i'm not on course, would have taken leave/off to go.. sound so fun la..

anyway.. this week will be the last tough week.. 3 days summary exercise plus RTI (POWs).. meaning to say we're gonna 'get caught' by the 'enemies' and treated as POWs.. hmmm.. 12 hours straight after the exercise.. we're not allowed to sleep.. it's gonna be tough.. but it'll be all over in a twinkling of an eye.. haha..

oh.. my phone died.. i washed my pants in camp with my phone in it.. soaked it for like few mins before i realised it.. alot of information inside my phone and contacts.. sigh.. God resurrect it i pray.. no phone to use in camp.. how to invite friends?

and to all those that are enlisting, all the best eh.. to think i have entered ns for like 8 months already.. haha.. waiting for this week to pass..

Thank You Jesus

For Your love to me

Thank You Jesus

For Your grace so free

booked out today.. by right i'm supposed to book out tmr, but the schedule changed.. so fast, 4 weeks of the RCC is over.. 2 more very tough weeks, then RCC phase 1 will be over.. so fast.. another 3 weeks phase 2 will be over..
just finish watching ai qing mo fa shi.. hmmm..
anyway, during training, saw this poem in one of the training sheds.. (fofo hill)

wang ri qing shen he chu qu
jin ri zhi neng kong hui yi
zao zhi jin ri hui fen li
qing yuan dang chu bu shi ni

another one:
shi jie shang zui yao yuan de ju li
bu shi shen yu si de ju li
ye bu shi tian ge yi fang de ju li
er shi zhan zai ni mian qian
ni que bu zhi wo ai ni

*emo poems*

tired tired tired

9km FAST march yesterday.. then just finished ex Long Walk.. walk so much i almost died.. carrying a load of almost 30kg, walked for almost 14 hours.. i think my legs have grown shorter.. sigh.. finished at 3 plus this morning.. haven sleep much.. super super tired..

i think i have a new phobia

newly discovered

i hate it

service was exceedingly good
2 weeks of power packed services
it's so cool seeing Rev Phil Pringle painting
especially painting such a big cross
it's so amazing
painting and preaching at the same time
his word today reminds me again
what He's done for us
all that and that..
so touched..

anyway im home like 3 plus 4
it seems so early
sunday afternoon starts to get boring
i mean i'm bored
what to do but come home
sigh
getting ready to book in
preparing for tougher training
4 more weeks
hope it gets better every week
sometimes being in camp
with all my recce unit mates
may be more exciting
doing silly things
playing bridge.. oh
won't get to play anymore in 6 to 7 weeks time
4 SAB back to 4 SAB
8 SAB back to 8 SAB

this week is going to be a very tiring week

9km fast march tmr

40 over km Ex LongWalk

what else? unsure.. strength

a struggle between pride and righteousness..
never go cell group this week..

running through my mind

i prayed..

i cried..

night cycling on wednesday
long trip to changi village
what a quiet night
watched some soccer matches at the coffeeshop
left when the matches ended
traveled on the main roads
shorter journey but it rained
stopped at tampines for some daidees and bridge
all but wj and me cabbed back
cycled in the rain, tiring and wet
praying as i cycled in the rain
what a special time to pray, without any disturbance
many things went through my mind as i cycled
i was touched, was sad and was reminded of many things
thinking too much may not be a good thing
but sometimes thinking through
and knowing the situation may be a better thing

didn't sleep a wink
unable to sleep
went out in the afternoon
met jt, hf, darrell, rebecca and hf's 2 members
watched the game plan
what a love between a father and a daughter
went far east to eat
on the way back camp, on the train
thinking of the show, thinking of my situation
almost cried when God spoke to me
i realise i could find joy and laughter in camp
i talk alot to people i'm close and familiar with
and my unit mates hinted that i am talking alot
may OOC, and 4 SAB and 8 SAB may be separated
gonna miss some of them, bridging illegally in bunks
thank You for having such a plan for me

i love You

i hope to grow out of it

i pray for the best You have for me

help me to grow in You

it's so tiring reading my last few posts.. i myself also lazy to read when i see them.. forgot what i posted.. don't know why there are people trying to read it.. haha anyway..

not going to sunday service this week.. COS duty on sunday.. sigh..
ever since i've entered 4th SAB, i've been slacking for 7 weeks already.. next week also nothing much.. 2 days CCAC, wed to fri off.. oh ya.. this whole week i've CCAC, some course to train us with some medic's skills.. one of it is the IV, which is to inject the needle in one of the veins so that the drip can be attached.. the drip is for casualties with blood loss.. we're suppose to do it in pairs so that we'll inject each other.. i did it in one try, my friend's 1st one on me failed!! so i was being injected on both hands.. monday got to do another practice, then tuesday test!.. still have 2 more times.. 'a little' pain.. haha

this week i'd nights out on mon tues and thurs, fri book out.. practically i'm like a stay out personnel.. mon to wed, lectures whole day.. released at about 3 to 4 plus cause we did the lectures quite fast, some we had learnt in sispec.. lunch break is like 2.5 hours from 1130 to 1400.. oh ya.. yday's CCAC was cancelled too cause the medics all off.. we're supposed to have life run in the morning but change to games day.. so we woke up at 7am, skipped breakfast, games till 8 plus, went back bunk, then played cards till afternoon, skipped lunch, do abit of area cleaning, inspection(very slack one), changed civi and book out at 3 plus.. but anyway.. first 8 weeks so slack, next 8 weeks will be my RCC.. it's gonna be tough..

and oh.. last week's service was great.. very touched by the video..

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Matthew 6:33
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
Psalm 37:4
Delight yourself also in the LORD, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.

sometimes i really wish i can read minds

can i know what are you thinking

help me to be more sensitive

on public road, you learn right turn, left turn and U-turn
on off-road, you'll learn something new, a new turn..
something so difficult to teach
and you don't want to be the chosen one..

everyday has been a tiring day! waking up at 0510.. been sleeping at 10 plus which is quite early.. never used to sleep so early haha..

riding a bike is very fun eh though alot of people say that it's quite dangerous.. true cause need to beware of potential dangers.. actually it's not that bad.. i've got to ride on public road already! clocked around 172km of distance.. alot of things to take note after we went on public road.. horning is fun but didnt get to used it cause most of us will tend to slow down when we see danger instead of horning.. but i almost ran over a group of students who dashed across in front of me.. trying to be funny la.. oh.. our public road route will pass by an entrance to the PIE.. if never change lane might get squeezed by other vehicles to PIE eh and L plates cannot drive in PIE.. quite funny la my instructor always say some trainees almost went holland village.. actually the instructors said alot of funny remarks.. my friend, after riding through one round of the public route 1, came back with a story, the boy who cried wolf.. what's the moral of the story.. off your signals.. think you guys don get it.. but it's quite funny la.. tmr don have to go cause i passed (and not passed away) my balancing circuit test on the 1st attempt!! just came back cause had night riding.. at night the traffic super heavy..but still fun la.. must learn how to change lane and forcing car to slow down for you.. hahaha.. around less than 2 weeks more only.. so fast ending already.. nearing the end of my booking out everyday.. sigh

you are right

i must grow more

substance of things hoped for

evidence of things unseen

i feel so left out with you guys.. i don't understand what are you all talking about.. things not shared with me.. maybe it's really ok for you not to ask me out the next time.. i really hate this kind of feeling..

upset, left out, lost

deep thoughts

sigh..

hmmm.. it has been a long time since i last blogged.. haha.. posted to new unit like one month ago.. few more months to become 3SG.. looking forward to pay increment.. hahaha

anyway.. bike course now.. quite slack.. everyday half day practical half day theory.. between practical and theory, there'll be a morning break and tea break.. meaning go canteen and eat or rest etc.. i think all of us are gonna grow fat.. the canteen only has one stall and the person selling is a malay.. malay food are more oily and stuffs.. haha..
got to wake up like 510 in the morning to take the train at 545 so i can reach kaki bukit in time to report at 715 in the morning.. vvvv tired eh.. ooh haha thank God there's someone who takes train with me in the morning from boon lay.. oh ya.. every morning there's this cedar girl on the train whom he thinks quite hot.. so every morning though tired, just looking forward to taking train.. hahaha..

my unit combine with other units who are taking the bike course also and divided into 2 teams, in which in each team there are 9 groups, and in reach group there are 3 person.. calculate how many people are taking the bike course.. hahaha.. so there are different instructors taking each group for the 9 groups only.. team A and B will rotate, e.g if A is doing practical and B doing theory in the morning, afternoon will swap over.. group 3(my group) and 6 train together.. thank God the instructors are quite funny.. quite lame sometimes and they never really scold us.. i see some instructors v irritating.. keep scolding then gave alot of pressure.. wah.. and i hate to stay back from 5 to 7 for extra trainings.. i must pass all the tests.. tmr there is a highway situational test.. i must PASS!

i finally manage to fix my rubic's cube... but the cube is spoilt after it has gone through the hands of ACOE.. the 2nd IC for the whole bike course.. argh.. haha.. somebody guess how much it is.. it's unbelievable..

missing out on things

need some encouragement

need some revelation

A stone is heavy and sand is weighty,

But a fool’s wrath is heavier than both of them.

Wrath is cruel and anger a torrent,

But who is able to stand before jealousy?

Open rebuke is better

Than love carefully concealed.

bye bye BSLC

finally pass out from BSLC.. 10 weeks, to be exact 67 days, are over in the blink of an eye.. the scene that we're gonna get separated seems touching.. some of us are going separate ways.. my bed buddy send me this,
67 days since the first day i met you all
67 days of my life with you
67 days of shit we went through
67 days of sweat and laughters
67th day has come and we might need to say goodbye
Memories of the 67 days will not be forgotten
Thanks for everything..
Take care whereve you go..
I was quite touched by his message even as I look back at all the things we'd done together.. 10 weeks is a short period..

today i'm super tired.. i haven slept at all since last night.. i'm officially out of BSLC, a corporal.. before we go for the passing out parade, we had to march 28km with our field packs and everything.. through the night from 8pm to 4am then go straight for parade still with our field packs on.. some of us almost fell asleep standing.. we didn't get to sleep at all cause after the parade we had to go back to our bunks to clear all our things.. i was reminded of our section again.. guess our bonds in sispec are stronger than in BMT.. the trainings we did together, the illegal things we did together, the good fire movement which made our sect com proud, the field camp we went through together, the battalion of ant bites on us at tp2, the fatigue, the nonsensical talk we had(though some came through).. though i know none of my bunk mates will read this but i just wanna say thanks for everything through the 10 weeks.. have fun in all your new vocations..

Falling

Find me in Your holiness
Lead me in Your righteousness
How I love You
Beautiful Savior
When I'm weak You make me strong
Bearing my cross I carry on
How I need You
Heavenly Father

Search my heart O Lord
You know my every thought
An open book to You
I place my all in Your hands

Falling at Your feet
As my whole world fades away
Falling at Your feet
Let my life be wholly thine
My life be wholly thine, Jesus

Emmanuel
Emmanuel
Abba Father, never let me go

this is such a great song..

Spiritual Concentration

went service yday cause today cannot make it.. it was a tremendous one.. it's like God speaking to me from point to point during the service.. a renewal of my spirit, soul, mind..
1) A question of Treasure
2) A question of Vision
3) A question of Devotion - what am i devoted to?
4) A question of Ambition
Worry means to let a tormenting thought strangle you..
i realise sometimes i seem to worry alot.. why worry? since every obstacle that comes our way requires divine permission from God..
anyway, army life hasnt been very tough, just that it's hard to pray and do daily devotion.. i admit that my devotion has not been strong.. i felt a sense of lost sometimes.. i think that i'm getting a little easily agitated by things.. sometimes i think of myself more than others.. when Pastor preaches, God just spoke to me.. i had vivid flashbacks in my mind at that time.. i know i'm slowly drawing away but thank God for my faith that draws me back.. through this period, i'm weak spiritually and Matthew6:33 keeps coming to my mind.. i know that this verse can encourage me but i dont feel encouraged at all by my own thoughts.. however, i finally understood and was deeply impacted once again when Pastor preached about that verse last night..
"Concentration on God is of more value than personal holiness"
love God such that every other devotion seems like hatred in comparison..
it's a great revelation for me..

half marathon today.. ran 12km.. not bad i completed it running all the way and never walk.. i believe training in sispec has helped.. but army likes to waste our time.. we finish the run at around 9 plus, but we had to stay around and do nothing.. if only i could leave earlier, i would have gone for service.. oh.. wasted my money for cab again cause the cab went for a loop cause the roads are blocked.. but thank God that the taxi driver allowed me to pay just $20 because it exceeded by quite alot..haha

going to pop this week! let me go to the place You want me to be..

i was down, almost left, but You drew me back

You're always there even when i don't feel You

i was dry, but You watered my soul at the right time

Everything's gonna be alright

Thank You Jesus

2Timothy3:14-17
But you must continue in the things which you have learned and been assured of, knowing from whom you have learned them, and that from childhood you have known the Holy Scriptures, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus. All Scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work.
remembering the things you have learned from young (not just physically, spiritually too)
-Prayer
-Fasting
-Word of God
-Ministry
-Godly Fellowship
-Serving one another
-Reaching out to leaders and friends
foundation to move to another level of breakthrough and bringing them along..

In 2Kings,
Elisha was so hungry for God that when Elijah asked him to stay behind, he refused.. he knew about Sacrifice.. even so, as he seeks after God, eventually he gets double anointing of God..

service was great.. Rev A.R. Bernard is so powerful.. all his teachings are so deep.. nothing much today.. didnt go out.. going to book in again..

my life in sispec is actually quite interesting.. alot of funny things.. but not in the mood to blog bout that now.. sigh..

i'm wanna watch all the movies i have not watched..

feeling super down

sounds like i'm at fault again

2 scoldings at a time

i feel that whatever i have done is nothing

why is it like this? sorry guys..

Today is National Day! haha.. one day off for me.. booked out yday.. earned my whole day off (no need to book in at night) cause of gold ippt.. but so sad i'm stuck at home.. nothing to do.. it seems like no one is going out today or they have their own activities.. sigh.. should just book in tonight..

went out last night to catch disturbia, midnight show.. not a bad show but missed the front part.. went to stay over at weijian's place.. if not i'll be spending alot on cab fare again.. someone ask me out? haha..

speak to me the rhema word

bring me out of this wrong thought

draw me closer to You

i can't take this anymore, it's unhealthy

i don't want to leave......

Deliverance

this is my 4th night out.. i think i have been neglecting my bunk mates =X.. so i went out with them at jp just now to arcade..

anyway.. last week's service was very good.. i didnt respond to any altar call on saturday.. hx made a joke out of me.. saying that Rev Mike Connell should have called to pray for spirit of pride.. i think sometimes i may have pride in me.. maybe cause i'm in army? i don't know but i hope i don't have pride (as in the bad one).. i responded on sunday and i felt really great after i was being prayed for.. i was helping around and as i was helping, i could feel myself going to vomit also.. the presence is so tangible and all the spirits are like fleeing..

i feel that xt is really great.. she really cares alot for her members.. after ken was being prayed for once at the last altar call, i know it wasnt complete cause the person left praying halfway.. i think maybe he was afraid or something.. but anyway.. so xt asked ken to be prayed again.. ken refused.. xt wanted to ask wayne to pray for him cause she said he is one of the most powerful SOT students.. when she went over, ken ran away.. so wayne didnt manage to pray for him.. however.. i think xt felt strongly that ken needs to be prayed for.. and then the chance came when ken was on xt's left and wayne was on xt's right.. xt asked ken again whether he wants to be prayed for and he still refused so xt just say so be it.. i think ken was touched or guilty so after a while he agreed to be prayed for.. so wayne prayed for him.. it was a tough time.. i was happy for ken too as he was being prayed for.. i think xt really cares for ken and she was persistent.. if she didnt ask ken continuously, ken might not be cleansed.. to xt's members (though all of you won't be reading), be grateful to xt and be nice to her.. she's a good leader..

Thank You Jesus

for cleansing me

let me grow stronger in You

Guard my heart O Lord

Sick

one day attend c is not enough.. the mo should have given me 2 days.. booked in without total recovery.. headache still there.. not nice to have high fever.. it splits your head..

anyway.. my 3rd night out since i enlisted to sispec.. that's why i can blog now.. haha.. i don't know why but i seem to dream alot in camp.. sometimes i get revelation while doing things too.. i like the feeling of getting revelation.. sometimes when i realise i've done something i shouldn't have, it's really not a good feeling (litotes).. haha.. i wanna grow up..

thank God for your strength

i love your sweet Jesus

i think my posts are quite boring.. anyway..

fell sick yesterday during navigation in mandai.. my whole body became very weak.. i knew i had fever but i didn't want to report sick yet so i carried on.. then we were lost in the forest.. we couldn't find our way out after a long walk.. at that time, though i didn't say, i was quite scared cause i felt really sick and i was thinking what if we still can't find our way out till night.. alot of emotions at that time.. my fever was up to 38.9°C with bad flu, sore throat and i feel like vomiting.. had a very bad headache which almost killed me when i was waiting for the prescription of the medication from the medical centre.. i don't know why but at that time there was not much people at the medical centre and i had to wait so long for my medicine..

i need healing Jehovah Rapha..

i shall faster end my story on BMT..

after field camp, there was like nothing much to do already.. quite alot of time for us to stay in our bunk and relax.. oh.. sgt ong asked us, 'if you forget all the other things you learnt in field camp, there is one thing that you cannot forget.. what is it? that thing will bring you through ns smoothly..' so some of us shouted some common sense stuff.. then he hinted us that he always say that to us.. lester said, 'don't do stupid things..' thinking of all the stupid things people have done in field camp, it seems quite true and it even applies to me now in sispec..

oh! it's time to pass out from BMT.. so we had to rehearse for the Graduation Parade (Passing Out Parade) the day before pop, we were still rehearsing for it.. then there was a break when lester and i and another guy went to the back of the stadium to drink some water.. we saw one scorpion girl and some guys practising.. cause they were platoon best and they had to go up to the stage to collect things.. oh the girl is like the nicest looking girl among all the scorpion girls.. we were daring lester to go take her no.. i said if he can get her no, i'll call her.. haha.. so many sergeants were there but lester had an opportunity and he went over.. guess what he said.. 'the army doesn't know this, but i had cancer and i'm dying soon and my last wish is to get your no.' .. super funny man.. we told him not to say that but he still said that.. then the girl asked him to get her no. from the sergeants.. haha.. so sad to say he failed.. oh.. the girl is also in sispec now.. anyway..

POP loh.. many of us go our separate ways.. though most of us are in sispec but in different companies.. BMT was a good experience..

search my heart O Lord

You know my every thought

pre-service is bad..
service is good..
post-service is ...

xt was asking me on the way back whether I can pray in camp not..
"how can I fight 10 weeks war with 12 days prayer.."
"5 days war with 2 days prayer.. "

things seem so wrong..
prayer is important I know..

God help me..
People pray for me..

Let my life be wholly thine

My life be wholly thine, Jesus

-mortification-

block leaves are quite boring.. staying at home doing nothing.. i feel like i'm wasting my life away.. well anyway..

story continues.. after 1st book out, all the things start coming in.. i cant say that Whiskey company is slack, but just that our schedule is not that tight and we have more admin time compared to other companies.. we still need to maintain basic discipline and stuffs.. oh ya.. 2nd book in is only 3 days to book out.. so quite slack la huh.. then comes field camp.. 8 clicks to field campsite was quite tough.. don't know why when all of us could clear our last 24 clicks easily.. when we reached the campsite, we were supposed to build our basha (our tent 2persons to 1 basha).. we were supposed to put on everything (rifle, LBV and helmet) when building.. then one of my friends took out his helmet for a while, and when he put back on his helmet, he got bitten by a centipede THIS BIG.. and i mean REAL BIG.. so i took my ET stick and blade, trying to kill it by chopping it into pieces as it crawls away.. amazingly, the centipede still can continue crawling even when i chopped off like 3/4 of it's body.. so i use the stick to smash its head till it's flatten and dead.. then sergeant ong came.. my buddy was saying that i'm so cruel.. so ong said(with his usual funny tone),"cruel.. you think it's cruel.. wait till you get bitten by it.. then you tell me who's cruel.." so those around were laughing.. oh.. we didnt get to bath in out field.. 1st evening.. the commanders asked us to fall in.. then took off everything and powder bath.. ong wants us to become like geisha.. so you know what i mean.. then he wanted us to unload check clear.. which is very funny to us.. ask me what is this.. i'm not gonna explain here.. so if there's not enough powder on us.. we were supposed to put MORE..

in field camp, we practised our fire movement, tactical movement etc (which is jungle fight la).. one of my friends(the one who has washing powder in his locker) super funny.. when we were practising the retreat, we're not suppose to point our rifles to the back as we run back cause we might shoot our friends.. so guess what he did.. i think he ran backwards.. that was super funny.. so he kena from my sergeant.. 2nd time.. he turned back and run.. however, this time he slotted his rifle under his arms pointing forward and ran to the back.. all of us laughed till our jaws almost dropped la.. oh.. then we also practised rolling left and right.. i think somebody got stuck halfway which made him look like a tortoise.. hahaha.. oh ya.. it rained during field camp.. many may think that it's bad.. but thank God, it rained in the afternoon when we were undergoing training.. so all trainings stopped for a while and we were supposed to go into our basha and rest till the rain stop.. however.. we did leopard crawl in the mud cause we moved too slowly.. hahaha.. but good thing is it never rains when we were sleeping at night.. especially when we slept in cowboy style in the oil palm plantation.. quite cool eh cause you get to see the stars and sleep.. oh.. i think there are monkeys or squirrels there la.. while we were sleeping.. some people said that there are things "dropping" on them.. i mean they threw the fruits at them.. funny la..

the most tiring thing of field camp is to dig the shellscrap (a hole for us to lie in and take aim at the enemy without them seeing us from far).. so the hole must be deep and big enough and comfortable for us to lie in.. so the bigger you are, the bigger hole you need to dig.. WAHAHA.. but it was really tiring.. commanders gave us 1hr to dig but i think they knew we can't do it so fast la so we exceeded like don't know how many hrs but still cant finish.. then those that dig too slow were asked to cover up and dig again.. the feeling is like "God, struck lightning down and bomb a hole please".. oh.. my platoon there's this guy very fit from poly dragon boat.. super muscular.. he finished in like 45mins and he went around helping like at least 5 other people to dig.. so at night, all of us suppose to sleep in our own "hole".. each hole is around 5m apart.. quite far.. but our platoon trying to be funny.. we intended to sleep with our own section people so most of us slept outside.. then ong saw the bouncer(his nickname) then he asked him,"what you doing here?" he replied," sergeant, im...im abit scared".. hahahahhahah.. when we heard that we were laughing like crazy.. imagine a bouncer saying that.. oh.. and i heard "wild boars".. it was my friend snoring.. haha

we were not supposed to dispose our rubbish but to keep it (even though there are rubbish bins around).. they say is to train us cause next time when we go training in units there will not be any bins around.. so there are 2 guys in my section (one is the washing powder guy) went to do their business and then wanting to bury their rubbish.. so one officer from another platoon saw them being suspicious then he went over and ask them what are they doing.. my friend actually said they wanted to bury the rubbish.. hahaha super honest.. so the officer said cannot and he went off.. then he saw ong and told him that 2 guys from his platoon trying to bury his rubbish.. then one guy very funny just walk past the 2 of them.. so the officer say," there.. this one loh.. later i show you the next one.." after which.. the washing powder guy walked past.. "there.. this is the another guy.." hahah.. it doesnt sound funny but when you think of the officer trying to bao tou and then the victims walking past.. it's very funny..

I'll wait for the right time to come

Ecclesiates 3

when some areas are smooth sailing, some other areas will not be.. God? why is this? i rather the other area to be smooth sailing.. i shall wait and overcome the mountain.. God help me..

i love you i love you i love you

lots of emotions.. alot to feel.. can't express them out here.. just feeling quite confused, sad, tired.. God help me.. i know you have the best plan for me.. was feeling abit excited just now.. but now kinda bored and down.. pray pray pray..

today was quite boring.. maybe the non boring part of my day is the 1-2 hours.. watched fantastic four again (though i didnt mind) with ying, ting and glenn.. oh.. they like suddenly become very close and always watch movie together eh.. haha.. nothing much to post now.. next post shall continue on my 9 weeks chalet..

nothing to do now till cg.. i wonder if the block leaves are good or not..
anyway.. my 9 weeks of bmt were quite fun.. i was in Whiskey company, which people say that it is a white horse company but not really la.. i think we do get punishments when needed..

when i first enlisted, new people new faces everywhere.. however i got to know a few people on my first day and they are quite funny.. it was a good start.. oh.. and one happens to be my bunk mate.. first night.. everyone wanted to set alarm together just in case we couldn't wake up.. so some of us put our alarm clocks on the table which is at the centre of the bunk.. we were suppose to wake up at 0530 and fall in at 0545 so we set our alarm at about 0515 i think.. at 2 plus in the morning.. one alarm clock rang.. when we woke up, everyone was complaining (in a funny tone) whose alarm clock was that.. it belongs to a joker in my bunk called lester.. he said his alarm clock spoil that when the hour hand moves clockwise, the alarm hand moves anti so they met at 2 plus.. haha.. so first 2 weeks were called the adjustment weeks for us.. by the way, we had to confine for the first 2 weekends.. it seems kinda long when we first enlist but time seems to fly as we count down from 17 days..

still remember our first stand-by bed, means all the things in our lockers have to be standardised and our areas must be clean.. at that time, we still have alot of things not cleared yet.. so the sergearnt came in, opened lester's locker and he said,'wah, so smelly.. what did you do inside? this is a stand-by toilet isit? so when your section mates at night don't dare to go toilet can come here and pee.' it was very funny the way he said that la.. oh.. then he reach another guy's cupboard.. he said,' WHAT IS THIS?! why got so much washing powder all over? or is this your washing machine? do you need me to put a socket here so that you can plug in and wash your clothes? what are the wet clothes doing here? you think this is a microwave oven ah?' then he continued,'what did you do?! you put your legs into the cupboard and apply calami(is this how you spell) lotion isit? then spill all over or did you do something else inside?' then he looked around,' ah.. you all continue laughing.. laugh somemore..' haha.. all of us were trying to stop ourselves from laughing but the moment he said calami lotion we could not take it anymore.. before that, we saw him applying the calami lotion and then he spilled all over and onto his black shorts.. super funny.. then when he came to mine, he only took a look and somebody shouted fire fire fire.. it was the fire drill.. it was such a coincidence.. or a Godincidence.. just a few more seconds and i'll get some scolding.. haha..

so the first 3 weeks we were taught the basics of army, discipline, 7 core values, how we should behave in a file, what is expected of us blah blah.. most of the things i knew cause i was in ncc.. so i expected all these to come.. oh ya! the sergearnts will also choose people to become platoon ic.. the way the chosen ic gave commands is super funny.. one of them still have to write down the commands on his hand.. akan..eh.. menhadapan.. ber-ger-rart.. haha.. super funny the way they pronounce and the sergearnts had funny expressions..

oh.. everyone can be so tired for the whole day, singing so softly.. but when it's time to book out, everyone will suddenly be so energetic.. also thank God that my company is the nearest to the ferry terminal.. we don't have to march so far to book out.. imagine ours is so near and we take 1 hr to book out, what bout the rest..

first time blogging.. i mean first time blogging using my own blog.. hey.. i blogged a few posts in the JC blog k! haha.. anyway i was bored so i came to try blogging.. nothing better to do now.. though i think it's quite silly to talk about my life everyday.. but anyway.. it's time to do reflections of myself..

finally graduated from the lonely tekong island.. haha.. oh! when i pop on 12/06, smsed ting that i finally passed out when she's singing k with huiying, cally and glenn.. and they literally thought i passed out (fainted) when i was marching or something.. how is that possible when i had marched in parades before.. haha.. oh.. come to think of it.. i've got alot of things to post about my ns life.. i think God is really good.. and my platoon has so many funny things to blog about.. maybe next post i'll just talk plainly about my ns life in the last 9 weeks..

went out in the afternoon to meet huiying at bugis.. she asked me to accompany her to buy shoes and when i reached there she had gotten her shoes.. anyway.. we were quite silly.. i think we crossed queen street nearly 10 times la.. the road we crossed after exiting bugis street towards the hawker centre behind.. cause we plainly don't know what to do so we went to sim lim.. then went back to meet cally for lunch and then went back sim lim food court.. oh.. her colleague is such a 'funny' person.. already elaborated in huiying's blog i shan't say much.. shopped for ting's present but to no avail.. then went to watch fantastic 4.. soso..

and oh.. i got a call for an interview for pilot.. but i told them i'm not interested and i withdrew from it.. i don't know if that's the right choice but i don't want to sign on and i don't want to spend 10 years of my life studying how to be a pilot.. and most of the time overseas.. aiya.. maybe i should have become a pilot and by then i'll be super rich.. haha.. ok.. i'm gonna spend the rest of my 10 block leaves wisely and have some fun.. i'll try..

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