why woman needs cosmetics?
Cosmetics comes from this word,
--> Cosmos(Gk) which means no order, Tohu-Va-Bohu!!
Genesis 1:2
'the earth was without form and void; and darkness
was on the face of the deep'
you know you know.. but Thank God,
'And the Spirit of God was hovering over the FACE..'

Pst Aries said that it is a spiritual warfare for him
if his wife is not pretty..
and to fulfill man's first need.. need a beautiful wife..
it is very important to fight a good spiritual warfare!!
especially if you're going on a mission trip,
and a long~ one..
then you better fight a long and strong warfare first..

a spiritual thing Pst Ming said,
if you have a non-christian spouse,
and in the end he got saved,
it is really the mercy of God..

why must we pray?
you dont want to wait for the devil to come knocking at your door
saying, 'i'm here..'
and you're ' ahhhh..!!'
BUT you should go knock on the devil's door..
saying, 'i'm here!!'
' ahhhhhhhhhh.. nOooooo go away..' should says the devil..
so that the devil will not come looking for you..
but even if it doesn't come to look for you,
you must still continue to go looking for it..
to be consistent..

imagine you're in the china days, fighting a war
the general will carry a flag..
and your enemy goes, 'hahaha, aiya.. easy la..'
or, 'retreat..! zao ahh...'

it is scriptural to pray for Jesus to come back quickly
but it is not scriptural to pray to meet Jesus quickly

during a prayer meeting.. one person please don't pray too long..
'God, i pray for..', 1min, 2 min, 3 min, 4 min, 5min,
cgl starts looking at you, don't care, 6 min, 7 min,
hallelujah says the cgl.. don't care continue praying
8min, 9min, everyone starts looking at you with a deaf stare..
best way to stop, cgl starts singing..
pm over.. discipleship is then required..

suddenly.. i feel that guys are important.. people cant find guitarist come looking for guys.. hmm.. probably majority are man who learn guitars.. hahaha.. and this year sot sooo many musicians!! cool..

i was just feeling super busy.. and then i was thinking if i were to revert to my old life.. would i be less busy.. i would.. in fact.. i would be so free i cant take it.. maybe a little less busy would be good.. seems like never ending stuffs to do..! i need a life.. always forgetting stuffs cause too many things to remember man..

Help me, help me, help me,
cause all I need is you..

hmmm.. indeed God answers specific prayers!!
i prayed for a new tuition that will be at least $25/hr..
and i got a new student today which is $25/hr p6..!!
only teach math.. and i really didnt do much about it..
though i was planning to call and ask for new students..
it's really amazing seeing things happening when you pray..!
hahaha.. i'm gonna go pray for my errrhhmmmm... already..
i'm gonna be super super specific man..
you know you know, mum..
like how you pray.. hahhaha

i love You :)

jayden's father

ahh.. i miss Pst Ming.. haha he had finished his teaching.. on his last lesson, people cheered for him.. so cool man..

talk about sharing things with your spouses
Pst Ming showed his hp to his wife..
w: who is this?
m: erm.. you know you know.. the one la.. that one you saw the last time.. ya..
w: ooohhhh.. so who is this?
however, the wife doesnt show her hp. but... it's okay
eventually, she will say everything out..

one phrase caught:
As fast as you lit the fire, as fast your head will leave your shoulder.
catch it if you can..

there is a difficult saying:
even if your spouse is unfaithful, you have to do what is right..
there's a story that goes like this..
a man promised his wife to be faithful 365days a year..
his wife is soo happy.. what a nice husband..
but he added on.. every leap year on the 366th day,
he must do what he wants.. who wants a husband like this?
[1/(365x4+1)] x 100% = 0.068446% only.. can destroy a marriage
so what makes you think God can take us for doubting His Word..

Pst Ming fetched a mother and her son to church..
before the ride, he asked the son if he wants to go toilet..
he said he doesn't need.. so the journey begins..
when he was about to reach, the son said he wanna go toilet..
Pst: can you hold a while more?
Son: er... yes..
a while later..
Son: i cant hold anymore..
a good father will always prepare plastic bags in the car..
so the mum was helping the son.. and the worst thing to hear is..
Son: sorry uncle ming..
Pst: what happen??
Son: i missed..
mum have not opened for him the bag and he exploded..
when reached..
Pst Ming: Suraj, bring all cloths, towels and water to my car now..
a boy peed in my car!
Suraj: oh no!
Pst Ming: oh YES.. come faster come!
things happen.. but your attitude toward the circumstance matter.. self-control..

then he talked about this guy..
usually people will look at pretty girls and handsome guys..
the guy said he's able to stay focused..
so Pst Ming asked him how he did that..
he said every time he looks at a girl,
he will only look at her above the shoulder..
Pst Ming: people always have the tendency to look elsewhere.. yes yes?
SOT(some): ...yes...
Pst Ming: ya okay.. all liars go to hell ya..
woo check out that butt soo tight (in a feminine way)..

oh man.. he's soo funny..

Pst Aries said something which touched me deeply..
31st dec.. he and the rest of the people doing countdown in church..
so new year they prayed that the year would be the best year yet..
then he sent some girls home.. at 5am..
he met with a very serious accident..
one which caused him to have to attend court from jan to july..
what a way to start the year..
so he told Pst Kong his whole story in details..
Pst Kong only replied him one line..
Pst Kong: i don't know why God allowed it to happen..
but the devil must know that you're gonna have a
great destiny ahead and he must stop you now..
what a word..

played soccer on saturday morning and somebody tripped me resulting in this.. this is only the external injury.. the internal is more painful man..

i think i'm really a tough nut to crack..
even so, the more i grow,
the more things i've learnt,
the more knowledge i've acquired,
the tougher nut i become to crack..
alot of decisions making will base on my knowledge..
sometimes good, sometimes bad i guess..
i think i'm a wandering sheep..

i have learnt to be very careful of my usage of words..
therefore i'm very particular of the things people say..
especially if people quote what i say..
usually, when a person say somemthing,
and something lame comes to my mind
i will say it out as a joke.. but if, that involves hurting someone or
making a big joke out of a person.. 我会说,
"我有东西想讲，但是我不想讲。" although this is pretty lame..
but at least i know i won't make a joke at the expense of someone..
so it is so important to say the right words..
when life and death lies in the power of the tongue..
and the WORDS you use, shows the attitude also..
one needs to learn to pass message, of one party to another,
using words with the same meaning and attitude..
the attitude part is so important.. ask me about it..

injured my left leg.. injured my left hand.. and i realised i use alot of my left hand.. i cant do without it.. God please heal me..!!

while washing the dishes just now, i was convicted of something.. and then another thing struck me.. i started tearing.. God help me..

刚教完补习，

在回家的路上想了一些事情。
突然间，我有了一个启示。
哪些人才算是亲近的朋友呢？
就是那些当你和他们单独的时候，
你还能和他们说话，
还能分享你的心事，
不会有那种尴尬的感觉。

有些时候，

虽然你会喜欢和某些朋友在一起，

但却不能说出你的心事，

那些不一定是你亲近的朋友。

had many thoughts today during sot
when Pst Aries is preaching
good or bad.. accountability.. attitude
not what you say but how you say

i just checked this verse on the amplified bible.. and it says..

Psalm 37:4
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart.

it's so cool man.. and you can check out the meaning of petitions.. =)
God is so amazing!

我永远不会忘记

主你那丰富恩典

如今我在天父怀中

因为你舍下自己

你不看我的过去

只是完全接纳我

主你的爱何等伟大

我的心完全融化

我亲爱救主

我心何等感谢

你单单在意

我这爱你的心

我愿一身

追求跟随我主

谦卑为你

服侍这世界

我亲爱救主

我要一身敬拜

在我生命中

你是唯一的爱

毫无保留

我愿献上所有

何等渴慕

能为你而活

耶稣我主

so touched so touched.. sometimes chinese is so amazing..

hmm.. i think God is good.. started the day 'well'.. ended the day better.. really trusting and relying on prayers alot.. and i'm seeing alot of things happening.. i'm tired but not so tired.. haha.. i love You.. =)

hmmm.. today could be my worst day yet.. don't know why but seemed to knock into quite a number of people today in the morning.. or rather people knock onto me? thank God i wasn't angry.. so upon reaching i went to pray at the side.. today's lesson is Pst Ming again.. as usual.. it is very interesting.. and Pst is such a funny guy.. his expressions are really very dramatic.. but somehow.. at some parts i think i wasn't concentrating.. maybe because i've got the notes.. and sometimes i was focusing on copying the notes onto my book, i didnt catch what he said.. hmm and i didnt manage to laugh nearing the end.. slight smile probably.. haha..

when my team members joked about me, before the break ends, i dont know why but my heart just sunk sooo low.. suddenly i feel so sad.. hmm.. had a struggle in my thoughts when lesson was going on.. i think i'm really good at putting on a strong front.. i still laughed and smiled when school ends, as per normal and even went for the choir audition; i didn't sign up but just try for fun.. mr goh if you're reading this, the struggle is one part of the conversation that we had the other day.. this post is emo again.. haha

to my sot team mates..

10 is the no. for the law..

so we should always obey the law..

so meaning the girls are always law abiding.. =X

haha okay shall stop being flaky here..

and don't be so serious about the 10 please.. :)

it's a brand new start! i mean brand new topic Going On To Perfection.. and Pastor Ming is sooo funny.. i think i love it everytime he preaches..

'You don't call me? Nevermind. I WILL CALL YOU!'

'If even you reject me 1000 times, nevermind. I WILL STILL CALL YOU!'

this is soo funny.. what a way to illustrate faithful member..

i shall proclaim something..

i will not for a morsel of 'chair' give up my salvation..

ask me about it! hahah..

shortcuts into the Holy of Holies?

shortcuts into a girl's heart?

there must be a prescribed way..

well.. that's all for today folks.. stay tuned for more.. hahah =)

p.s i'm sick.. pray for me please.. and you can pray for strength for everyone in SOT.. hahah..

easter this year was fantastic.. soo many people came.. and the response for altar call is like.. woahhh.. the aisles in front were all packed with people..! thank God that my cousins came, even though they didnt respond.. and the services were extraordinary.. it's not like the first time i watched the drama where 'Jesus' will come from the back during crucifixion.. but the atmosphere was soo... soo touched by it.. watched the drama 3 times and every time i almost teared.. praying for my cousins.. now is the time for follow-ups.. planning and planning..

i think that guitarists play rather important roles man.. and now there are so many people who knows how to play the guitar.. especially serving in children's church.. if i don't go serve at my age group(to play for my service), they will need to find a replacement which is quite a difficult job.. why? must know the songs, must be able to serve at that timing, must be willing, must have a certain standard.... even though there is another guy who serves in the same service as me.. but both of us couldn't serve on the last sat during easter! i'll feel bad and worry for anna if she is able to find a guitarist in time.. need more guitarists in children's church!! haha.. big days are always like this..

mr goh and i had a talk again some days back..
me: wah.. i have alot of things to do man.. many things still at the back of my head..
him: ooh.. how come when you have so many things to do, you still have time to think of this?
hmm.. i was thinking bout it.. maybe i'm not so busy afterall? or maybe i need to utilise my time well so that i'll be able to finish everything.. and probably whenever i have rest time, consciously or subconsciously i will think of that.. haha.. was reading Faith by Phil Pringle for my assignment.. decision making..
'We fear decision making. Not only does it opens doors ahead of us, but it demands that we close our options to alternatives. This can be very unnerving.'
haha i need to make a decision..
and oh.. mr goh.. you already made the decision in your heart alr.. you just asked me to await my approval.. haha.. and to let me know..

my mum(hx) is so nice.. thank you for the blessings and the encouragement.. haha.. sometimes even though she knows not the details, but she is always very encouraging to me.. i'm touched.. i love you mum..
hahah.. oh btw, mk drew the spongebob!! you know what i mean..hahah kidding..

p.s xt said that 我是过动儿.. 我不是，我只是比较喜欢说话吧了..

just return from sot.. on my way home, i was thinking of something.. hmm.. when i have a revelation from God, who are the people that i can share with? who are those that are willing to listen to the words that i hear from God? haha.. i guess i joke around too many times.. even when i say i had a revelation, people think that i'm just saying randomly again.. but, there are people who are always willing to listen to me.. you know who you are.. just some.. ahahah.. of course my good friend.. like what Pst Phil said during Men United, you must have a close friend whom you can share anything to, even some things that you feel difficult to talk to your cgl about.. and i literally share everything to him.. especially those things that i ALWAYS share and comment.. hahaha yes mum?? you know what i meant.. and i'll always be obedient to listen to what my mum asked me to do.. haha!! going to work now and give out easter flyers to my cousin at the same time.. time check 1521.. byeee

SOT today is so exciting.. start off the day with annabel leading..! but then.. i was pretty excited until i started jumping.. suddenly i feel feverish and my head felt pain.. i think its because i drank the teh-0 bing.. so after elevate.. i'm feeling pretty bad migraine.. all the way till worship.. and like tuesday.. we had quite a long worship.. so during the 2nd or 3rd worship song, i was praying for healing from God when everyone is worshipping.. i just laid my hand on my forehead and prayed.. but then.. my mind was telling me 'what are you doing? everyone is worshipping and you're holding your forehead? what if somebody sees you?' my first reaction was oh ya.. will be quite awkward if someone sees me and think what i'm doing.. but my head was having quite some pain.. then i heard the Lord speaking to me..

'Is it better for me to heal you or not to heal you? and let you continue worshipping with the pain?'

and God reminded me of what Jesus said when He wanted to perform healing during the Sabbath.. i was like that's so true.. how am i to worship and focus when i'm having such great pain.. so i then continued putting my hand on my forehead and prayed for healing.. many times i did.. and the pain diminished gradually.. it was still during worship.. then i heard God speaking again..

'you shall be bold from now on. if you have faith, you shall have NO fear for I am with you.'

i'm so shocked by the word God uses and i'm like..

'God, you mean some fears? or you meant that i'll be able to overcome fears?'

and all of a sudden, i knew that i had lack of faith for a moment.. this is quite cool for me.. and before Pastor Derek ends the worship, he specially prayed for healing upon migraine and headache ONLY.. it was really really really amazing.. i felt like i'm having a long talk with God during worship.. and before worship ends, my stomach hurts a little.. guess it's the after effect of the drink.. i was like oh no! i will to leave the hall to go to the toilet how? so when worship ended, Pastor said,' you need a break.. now is 1010, come back at 1040..' i was like =O.. a break?!?! 30 mins LONG?! the longest break we had so far.. it was so real..

ps.. i told xt about the amazing thing of pastor praying only for migraine and headache!