so good to be born rich.. i wish i were.. no troubles over finances.. haha rob bank ah!
*praying*

好朋友不一定要常见面

常见面的也不一定是好朋友

爱相随

别想你 忍不住我提醒自己

伤了心 有些事也要过去

心很痛 痛的不想再做我自己

别回头 请已去 缘已尽

很想你 也不是因为失去你

爱了你 用尽我全心全力

一生情 只因为这一次相遇

请难了 难再续 难再续

人分飞 爱相随

哪怕用一生去追

我又怎么能追得回

与你相慰

我为你痴 为你累

风雨我都不后悔

我又怎么有路可退

曾经深情(我如何面对）

你给了谁

haha.. weird after v day.. but was listening to it and it seemed touching..

how i feel all these while..

actually.. it's really hard for me.. i know i'm not that close to you guys.. but at least we have good entertaining fellowship.. able to talk freely to you guys.. about anything and sometimes abit too much, so i'm sorry haha.. but if you realise.. most of the times you guys talk among the both of you.. the 'codes' that you(s) used.. i seem to be out of the conversation most of the time.. i feel left out.. i don know what you(s) are saying.. i don feel part of the clique..and many a times, a voice will tell me that i'm not fit to be part of you and i feel like withdrawing.. felt it again today also.. and sometimes when i wanna say something.. you(s) will be distracted and start another topic when i haven finish what i wanna say.. and all the more especially i'm not close to your flowers (anymore).. it's kinda weird when i don know what to say when we're with them.. cause all of you can talk among yourselves.. but i don know what to say.. especially when people do remember the past.. haha i've tried to change but the fact is a scar is left.. and the atmosphere is always so awkward so weird.. so i'd rather not say a thing.. and when you(s) are busy with them.. i'll be left aside..

though sometimes i feel left out.. sometimes i may seemed pissed.. but when i'm home.. i'll eventually forget everything.. and i mean it.. whenever you guys call me out, even if i'm busy or something.. i just don feel like rejecting you guys.. i'll always try to meet if possible.. because i'm feeling the joy even before we meet.. though sometimes we do silly things and big sacrificial actions like today.. it's actually quite fun.. not because i'm _ _ _ _ therefore i agreed but i know that it'll bring laughter and joy to others and myself.. (that's why i thought of joining the drama ministry before haha) really enjoyed myself =).. thank you for thinking so highly of me..

p.s
1) i really still miss you mummy even if i haven been asking you out.. i'm afraid you're busy.. and there is really alot of things going on within the cg.. so sometimes i may forget bout you =X while busy planning and doing other stuffs..

2) actually i wanna blog about something but i couldn't remember.. haha i need my inspirations back..

friday cg was prett good.. so rush and busy but funny.. all of us were like preparing things for maoshun.. on another hand, we were preparing something for jj.. think maoshun is really touched.. i was too by what he said about this cg.. that this cg has alot of initiatives, very caring and friendly.. cant remember exactly what he said but the way he say it is touching.. he was surprised when we celebrated his birthday.. and all the more when he was presented with a trophy with 'Best Songwriter Ang Mao Shun Benjamin' engraved on it.. jj said he can see it everyday and maybe one day it'll happen.. haha.. then after that, everyone was like taking turns to hide in the room to sign on the singlet for jj for his official taking over.. so funny cause some of us are suppose to meet him but we're like busy.. anyhow it was fun..

and i went mind cafe after cg with ac soccer gang till 3pm.. no 5N already by that time so went jon's house to sleep a while cause morning meeting they cg guys to play bball at aljunied.. super super tired yday after the game.. still had to serve cch at expo after that.. oh before that, went to weiloong's place with bingxun.. they asked me join them for a while since i have time before i need to go serve at expo and because i have nothing to till then.. and bingxun like fetched me on cab cause he had to go somewhere in bedok to visit his grandma i think.. so he like paid most of the cab fare.. so nice man..

cch was quite fulfilled.. some children were so nice.. so sweet when the children just sit next to you or like climbing on you.. but one saw a plaster on my arm and he asked why.. i told him i fell down.. then another girl asked and he answered for me.. so funny in a way but usually children dont remember alot of things.. and first time i took a group of 4-year-old children for art & craft.. not first time taking a group but the 4-year-old.. they were so funny.. this week is a major one cause they were suppose to make a friendship tree for the whole service.. so each of them had apples that were to be pasted on the tree.. some were coloured by them last week and there is one apple that a child drew a car inside.. so funny man.. but i was very tired and meeting hf so i need to leave early.. felt a little bad.. anyway it was good..

today's service so funny.. though i was tired.. but it's impossible to fall asleep.. the drama.. hahaha.. and it's kind of funny every time i see sheila on stage.. it's so funny the last reply of the guy that his wife almost laughed out..
wife: i'm going out to meet susan
husband stands up: but i want to make love (the way he say it is so funny, a little kiddish, a little pleading kind)
wife: then what about her?
husband: she can wait but i can't wait
it's hahahahahaha.. and the Love Bank thing is cool.. Love Unit as currency.. pretty girls whom i have interaction with automatically has +100 LU in my Love Bank.. hahaha okay kidding.. it was a random thought.. okay.. this week is a fulfilling week..

haha.. watching 娱乐百分百.. so funny man.. xiao zhu always act the 'bad guy' while xiao gui be the 'good guy'.. ahhh.. and he's shallow =p.. cant stand it.. hahah.. okay this is random.. i think i forgotten what i wanna say..

meet junjie just now to have a drink.. to just talk and fellowship.. and also brought something that he asked me to make for maoshun.. guess he wont be reading this so it's okay... hahaha.. please dont tell him YET.. it's a surprise! it's quite cool i think.. anyway had some talks with junjie.. we can actually talk about our secondary school times.. haha.. and he asked me how many gfs i have.. i told him none cause i'm a very shy person.. then he followed up and asked if i like anyone now.. man.. i don know how to answer him.. i just told him not really and he said means have.. i was like, 'nothing much', so as he probe abit, i managed to changed topic and asked him something else.. it's really nothing much so i didnt wanna tell him anything.. hx said.. it's not wrong to like someone.. but what i do that matters.. so ya.. haha.. but it was quite funny that we could actually talk so long.. talk bout sports, soccer basketball etc.. and see him play games in his laptop.. hahaha..

p.s: my favourite pillow on my bed now is the cushion
okay this is random but haha =)..