Sick

one day attend c is not enough.. the mo should have given me 2 days.. booked in without total recovery.. headache still there.. not nice to have high fever.. it splits your head..

anyway.. my 3rd night out since i enlisted to sispec.. that's why i can blog now.. haha.. i don't know why but i seem to dream alot in camp.. sometimes i get revelation while doing things too.. i like the feeling of getting revelation.. sometimes when i realise i've done something i shouldn't have, it's really not a good feeling (litotes).. haha.. i wanna grow up..

thank God for your strength

i love your sweet Jesus

i think my posts are quite boring.. anyway..

fell sick yesterday during navigation in mandai.. my whole body became very weak.. i knew i had fever but i didn't want to report sick yet so i carried on.. then we were lost in the forest.. we couldn't find our way out after a long walk.. at that time, though i didn't say, i was quite scared cause i felt really sick and i was thinking what if we still can't find our way out till night.. alot of emotions at that time.. my fever was up to 38.9°C with bad flu, sore throat and i feel like vomiting.. had a very bad headache which almost killed me when i was waiting for the prescription of the medication from the medical centre.. i don't know why but at that time there was not much people at the medical centre and i had to wait so long for my medicine..

i need healing Jehovah Rapha..

i shall faster end my story on BMT..

after field camp, there was like nothing much to do already.. quite alot of time for us to stay in our bunk and relax.. oh.. sgt ong asked us, 'if you forget all the other things you learnt in field camp, there is one thing that you cannot forget.. what is it? that thing will bring you through ns smoothly..' so some of us shouted some common sense stuff.. then he hinted us that he always say that to us.. lester said, 'don't do stupid things..' thinking of all the stupid things people have done in field camp, it seems quite true and it even applies to me now in sispec..

oh! it's time to pass out from BMT.. so we had to rehearse for the Graduation Parade (Passing Out Parade) the day before pop, we were still rehearsing for it.. then there was a break when lester and i and another guy went to the back of the stadium to drink some water.. we saw one scorpion girl and some guys practising.. cause they were platoon best and they had to go up to the stage to collect things.. oh the girl is like the nicest looking girl among all the scorpion girls.. we were daring lester to go take her no.. i said if he can get her no, i'll call her.. haha.. so many sergeants were there but lester had an opportunity and he went over.. guess what he said.. 'the army doesn't know this, but i had cancer and i'm dying soon and my last wish is to get your no.' .. super funny man.. we told him not to say that but he still said that.. then the girl asked him to get her no. from the sergeants.. haha.. so sad to say he failed.. oh.. the girl is also in sispec now.. anyway..

POP loh.. many of us go our separate ways.. though most of us are in sispec but in different companies.. BMT was a good experience..

search my heart O Lord

You know my every thought

pre-service is bad..
service is good..
post-service is ...

xt was asking me on the way back whether I can pray in camp not..
"how can I fight 10 weeks war with 12 days prayer.."
"5 days war with 2 days prayer.. "

things seem so wrong..
prayer is important I know..

God help me..
People pray for me..

Let my life be wholly thine

My life be wholly thine, Jesus

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